Last year I got pregnant right after we got married, I wanted to keep the baby, he kept saying that we can't afford it and that we are apart, so I should have an abortion. It was an extremely hard decision for me because I wanted to keep it, he kept saying that he'll be "a deadbeat dad" (actual quote from him). So now I'm realizing he was letting me know he won't be there if that's the line of reasoning he seemingly went down on. So, I felt pressured to have an abortion...
A couple nights ago I confessed about how I'm still hurting mentally from that whole experience last year, and somehow, I don't remember exactly how it all happened because it was a heated argument... he said something along the lines of that his ex girlfriend didn't have an abortion and she simply drank and smoked her baby to death, and that I should *somehow* feel better for doing it the humane way. **But I didn't want to have an abortion AT ALL**.
I feel like my heart has been ripped in half ever since the abortion, and he simply refuses to understand, and I should understand that he will likely never change.
This is why we argued - it's this discussion and seemingly every discussion that turns into an argument. Every day...