Hello,
I am going through CR1 in France and I will soon have to do the medical examination. I have a complicated medical history and I have some worries, I would love to hear what people with more expertise or with similar experiences think.
I have a neurological disability that is pretty severe, I can walk and live independently but I still use a crutch often and sometimes a wheelchair. I am not worried about being denied for this, what worries me is why I got this disability. In 2018 at 18 I did a suicide attempt, to be blunt it was a defenestration, and because of how severe it is I wonder if they will be able to overlook it. Between 2017 and 2018 I was also hospitalized in the psych ward several times (6~) because of other minor suicide attempts with medication (3 total).
The last time I committed any self harm was more than 4 years ago and the last suicide attempt was more than 5 years ago. Ive been living a very stable and happy life for the last 3 years and I have no symptoms now, my psychiatrist stopped seeing me 3 years ago because she thought I was doing very well, I had no relapses since then. My issues started because as a teenager I was living in a complicated situation (family and abusive relationship) and we realized that they were made a lot worse by the psychiatric meds they gave me for 3 years. The moment I stopped them my physical and mental condition improved drastically in a matter of months.
Now I don’t meet the criteria for any mental illness and I don’t require any medication or therapy. My general practitioner made a letter where he explained that he is my general practitioner since 2017 and that I didn’t require any psychiatric treatment or therapy anymore since 3 years because of my good mental health state and that I do not require any medical treatment. He can’t write about my diagnosis and hospitalizations because it’s not allowed in my country, as a doctor he can’t share those informations with anyone else than me and my other doctors.
I do not have a letter of my psychiatrist because she is working in another country now, but my GP is the doctor that followed me the longest. I tried getting my medical records from the psychiatric hospital but they just don’t have them, they literally didn’t keep them or just didn’t record much to begin with. I have documents that shows the dates, but I have very little evidence of what the psychiatrist said.
I read online that if the dangerous self harming behavior is not likely to reoccur and that more than 12 months passed since the last time it happened then it shouldn’t be a reason to be denied. More than 5 years passed in my case and the reasons why it happened will never reoccur, I was also a teenager, I am a lot more mature and aware of my feelings now that I am in my mid twenties.
Do you think that the letter of my doctor, the fact that it happened years ago, the fact that for the last years I’ve been doing really well and my honest explanations will be enough?
thank you in advance for your help