A little about myself: I am a nurse and my husband is an immigrant from Mexico. He came here for school back in 2010 and has been in school since. His plan was always to go back to Mexico when he graduated but then he met me. During a pandemic where medical professionals worked in excess we did not have a whole lot of dates out and generally had them at my house, which mostly consisted of my husband being my pillow while I slept. So we submitted a lot of photos that were just of us doing things solo. We finally moved in together and focused on getting my daughter accustomed to her new life, which was not easy, and we started the process to getting pregnant. After 2 HSGs it was shown that my tubes were blocked and so we moved onto IVF. Well in December of 2021 we transferred our first embryo and were overjoyed that it stuck and we were pregnant. My mother in law and sister in law came from MX and we went to my families Christmas party which is where we have the only pictures of us not alone together or with the kid. I ended up with Covid from my little sister after attending that party and our baby's heartbeat stopped and I miscarried. I have not been to a family event since and have since moved across the country to another state. I took down my social media bc it was triggering seeing so many people getting pregnant and I felt foresaken by God. I was in a better place until yesterday when I was sent a NOID and one of the things that was put in it was that we had not had children together. Now I am sitting at work, typing this and crying in an office alone. Here's the kicker, I am a correctional nurse in a facility that houses many ICE and I am over here worried about my immigration case. I am prepared to move to MX if need be but the only problem is that I am in the Army National Guard and would have to end up AWOL bc i wouldn't be able to afford the trips back and forth Anyways, nice to meet everyone and thank you for listening to my soapbox.