@shawnaroxanne Welcome to this crazy corner of VJ. We all can sympathize with you. The drinking can help sometimes, but it did get me into a little trouble a few times years ago when I wrote some things here I really shouldn't have! LOL Some mods may remember.... But honestly it's all a wild roller coaster and will eventually be over and worth it.
Feel free to share your thoughts and fears. We will try to help, but beware when we get to know you better we may tease you a little. It's all in good fun. Would be interesting to know more about you like where you fiance is from, etc.
Again welcome, and strap in for the ride.