Anxiety can get the best if us all, it's very big of you to apologize.
I know you said that this thread has been discouraging, I get it, you need to understand that people here are only telling you the truth of the matter. No one here is going to give you false expectations, that wouldn't be fair to you. Immigration is very stressful when coming to the US, even in the best of circumstances. The current administration is looking to stop most immigration/visas to this country, unless you fall into the billionaire class. Every last detail will be put under a microscope and scrutinized.
I wish you the best.