Yardies, at home and a farrin' (Part 4)

[rhondapayter 0]

Today has been particulary very hard for me. Im doing my best to try to compose myselft at work without bursting into tears. I just cant understand. I prayed & waited for this for so long. I am at a loss. I am at a loss, I am at a loss.

I'm so sorry Each day that passes, you will get stronger and stronger. It will just take time. I know that's the last thing you want to hear right now, but it's true. Time heals all wounds. You can come on here for support any time you want Or just to vent, cuss, holla, or tear him to shreads!!

[rhondapayter 0]

Hang in there, the sickness will soon go away

Please tell me that goes for me too??

I'm 20 weeks today and STILL sick

Ankles have started swelling up, and if I walk at anything but a snail's pace, I get out of breath and my stomach starts tightening

Not to mention I get exhausted just BEING out

Me too Mine started on Wednesday and it really hit me hard the last 2 days I will die if this lasts another 13 weeks Good luck to you Aliengirl.

[rhondapayter 0]

Yes I am going on Tuesday to Kingston. I am sorda packed not fully yet. PS I will post info after the interview Dwain insit on bring our lab top to the hotel.

Good luck. Have a safe trip. And yes, tell us all the details

[rhondapayter 0]

I wanna know too. I stayed there before when it was Club Jamaica and had a great time. Now I usually stay at Columbus Heights/Skycastles which is up on the hill, but know that I'm 7 months pregnant. I will be staying in a 2bed at Sandcastles when I go in May. What's wrong with Rooms?

Welcome Jengles!!

Me and hubby stayed at Rooms for 4 nights in August. I posted a review on Tripadvisor.com if anyone wants to read it. (It should be listed as Aug. 2006 from Detroit, MI). We really liked it. It's right on the beach, the rooms are nice and clean - we had a balcony w/ ocean view, A/C, nice big king-sized bed, cable TV, theres even an ice machine down the hall rare in other JA hotels we've stayed at!! There's a small pool w/ swim-up bar and nice showers to rinse off chlorine, sand, salt.... The property is guarded so there's no riff-raff running around the grounds. There's a guard at the beach entrance 24/7 to make sure the locals don't come onto the property via the beach.

Now, if I had to mention the negatives: there is no elevator so if you're on the 2nd or 3rd floor, you will have to go up and down the stairs a bit. The bathroom gets a bit warm since the A/C doesn't reach in there very well. The water in the shower is very low pressure - typical in JA. Also, the drinks and food and a little bit pricey but you can eat out since you are right in the middle of everything. We even brought food back a few times and ate by the pool - no problem. And the beach can get quite crowded (especially on weekends) because it is a public beach.

I'm anxious to see why jamaicagyaldat said NOT to stay there

[Mrs. Palmer 5]

Hi guys... I just wanted to drop in and see how everyone else was doing...Eric, I'm so glad that your wife finally made it...it gives me some sliver of hope that maybe things will work out for me and my fiance...speaking of which...I'm really here to vent....so bear with me...

I knew this whole denial thing was going to be hard on us. I knew to expect rough times, and in a sense, some form of change in our relationship, but I just wasn't prepared to what extent. Honestly, the last couple of months have been the most emotionally and mentally taxing I have ever experienced in my lifetime...I would never wish this kind of turmoil on my worst enemy. I know that we both still very much want to be together and we have every intention on getting married...its just the fact that we really won't be able to be together for another 3 years...what's making it even more difficult is the fact that a few of his friends have gotten married lately, and a couple of my friends have recently become mothers and are doing the whole family thing, and it's just been like, "why can't this be me?" "when will we ever get to experience this happiness?" We both have gone through great lengths to try not to let this whole thing affect how we are with each other, but for as much as we try, it doesn't seem to be working...We haven't been able to see each other for months because I work full time, am a full-time graduate student, and am completing my graduate internship now--20+ hours a week! On top of that, I will be relocating in June to NC, so I haven't had the time, energy, or $$ to go and see him...He always says that he understands why I can't come, but I know it bothers him when he asks when is the next time I'm coming, and all I can give him is an "i don't know"...his whole demeanor becomes so sad, which makes me feel even worse....lately, I've been afraid to call him (although I do and vice versa) because I never know how our conversation is going to end up...there's been yelling and crying and so many apologies, not because anyone has done anything in particular to one another, but just because we are so fed up with this whole thing. I know that God will not give you any more than you can bear, but honestly, I'm not sure if that's true. I talked to him this morning, and for once, it seemed like I had my baby back. He got moved to a permanent position at work and he feels really good about it, so hopefully this will make him feel a little better. A lot of our yelling has been a result of a lot of BS with the way things are going for him at work--how they make him work for weeks at a time b4 giving him a day off, how when it's time to get paid, there's always something mysteriously wrong with the computer system and they can't get their money on that day and so on....I know how frustrating that can be, an unfortunately there's nothing that I can do for him...which drives me even more crazy and leads to me feeling frustrated and sometimes lashing out as well...I don't know...I just feel like I'm in the middle of craziness at this point. I asked him if he thought we should push the wedding back, and he asked "what for?" He was like, if we did that, he felt like he would just die, because there's nothing else that he wants more. And I believe him...His mother even called me to tell me how down he's been and she was wondering what was going on...she's worried about him...and his best friend called the other night to check on me, and to tell me that he was doing his best to take care of him...I just wish that I could be with him right now and support him and hold him and let him know how much I love him...I tell him as much as I can, but sometimes you just need to "feel" the warmth of that person next to you....Sorry for making this so long, but I just needed someone to talk to...Thanks for listening (or not! lol) You guys have a great day

Tamisha

[nannygirl82 0]

Hi guys... I just wanted to drop in and see how everyone else was doing...Eric, I'm so glad that your wife finally made it...it gives me some sliver of hope that maybe things will work out for me and my fiance...speaking of which...I'm really here to vent....so bear with me...

I knew this whole denial thing was going to be hard on us. I knew to expect rough times, and in a sense, some form of change in our relationship, but I just wasn't prepared to what extent. Honestly, the last couple of months have been the most emotionally and mentally taxing I have ever experienced in my lifetime...I would never wish this kind of turmoil on my worst enemy. I know that we both still very much want to be together and we have every intention on getting married...its just the fact that we really won't be able to be together for another 3 years...what's making it even more difficult is the fact that a few of his friends have gotten married lately, and a couple of my friends have recently become mothers and are doing the whole family thing, and it's just been like, "why can't this be me?" "when will we ever get to experience this happiness?" We both have gone through great lengths to try not to let this whole thing affect how we are with each other, but for as much as we try, it doesn't seem to be working...We haven't been able to see each other for months because I work full time, am a full-time graduate student, and am completing my graduate internship now--20+ hours a week! On top of that, I will be relocating in June to NC, so I haven't had the time, energy, or $$ to go and see him...He always says that he understands why I can't come, but I know it bothers him when he asks when is the next time I'm coming, and all I can give him is an "i don't know"...his whole demeanor becomes so sad, which makes me feel even worse....lately, I've been afraid to call him (although I do and vice versa) because I never know how our conversation is going to end up...there's been yelling and crying and so many apologies, not because anyone has done anything in particular to one another, but just because we are so fed up with this whole thing. I know that God will not give you any more than you can bear, but honestly, I'm not sure if that's true. I talked to him this morning, and for once, it seemed like I had my baby back. He got moved to a permanent position at work and he feels really good about it, so hopefully this will make him feel a little better. A lot of our yelling has been a result of a lot of BS with the way things are going for him at work--how they make him work for weeks at a time b4 giving him a day off, how when it's time to get paid, there's always something mysteriously wrong with the computer system and they can't get their money on that day and so on....I know how frustrating that can be, an unfortunately there's nothing that I can do for him...which drives me even more crazy and leads to me feeling frustrated and sometimes lashing out as well...I don't know...I just feel like I'm in the middle of craziness at this point. I asked him if he thought we should push the wedding back, and he asked "what for?" He was like, if we did that, he felt like he would just die, because there's nothing else that he wants more. And I believe him...His mother even called me to tell me how down he's been and she was wondering what was going on...she's worried about him...and his best friend called the other night to check on me, and to tell me that he was doing his best to take care of him...I just wish that I could be with him right now and support him and hold him and let him know how much I love him...I tell him as much as I can, but sometimes you just need to "feel" the warmth of that person next to you....Sorry for making this so long, but I just needed someone to talk to...Thanks for listening (or not! lol) You guys have a great day

Tamisha

my heart goes out to you it really does!!! i am not going to say i know exactly what you are going through but i have been there...with the months of not seeing each other the yelling and crying and not wanting to talk to him because of how the conversation might be...i felt at times this is it i am just going to end and get on with me life...BUT then i would look at a picture or have a memory of something when we were together and realized i just couldn't bring myself to do it....you have to ask do some real soul searching and in the end if this is what you want and will make you happy then you shouldn't second guess yourself and go get married and maybe set aside some extra cash so if a cheap flight comes up when you have some time off you can go see him....take care everything will work itself out!

[Dwarf_Ogress 0]

Texasbound: You have my thoughts and prayers for your healing!

Belly'sGirl: Hang in there, love is a crazy thing but you guys WILL get through it!

Jax: Good luck on the upcoming interview!

To the new mommies: Sickness won't last that long, hang in there!

As for me, still waiting for my NOA2. I finish my last class at Arizona State University this Friday!!!!! Marlon sent his request for his police certificate from UK finally! Ummmm, that's about it. Have a great day everyone!

[Jonesie 1]

Quick hello to everyone - gotta get back to work so I'll check in @ lunch!

[morantbaygirl 0]

Good day family,

Just dropped in to say hello to everyone.

[luvtravlin 0]

Okay...have to vent....

I called 15 different places on the civil surgeon list for our surrounding areas and found one that would *only* charge $125.00....so I thought. ALLLLLL of the civil surgeons that I called will NOT just transfer the information, he HAD to do a complete physical, but suppovisely no extra shots were to be given !!! So we get there this morning (oh and by the way, this is the same place where Shemonya went and it only cost her $11.00 about a year ago)....Craig had to fill out about 15 different forms with ALLLL kinds of BS. Even on his 693 form the doctor at Andrews had checked off "not age appropriate" for the Hepatitis shot, BUT ...they would not accept that and we had to pay an additional $97.00 for just that flippin shot !! OH and they would not take his Xray's as proof of a TB test. So he had to get that and he has to go back in 2 days for them to *look* at his arm and then we have to wait a week for the bloodwork to all come back and go back and get the forms.

It seems that the "new deal", at least in Maryland (and Delaware), that they HAVE to do a complete Physical and no exceptions!!!

So the total .....$205.00 and 2 visits back ! Argh....

[Shemmy 4]

Okay...have to vent....

I called 15 different places on the civil surgeon list for our surrounding areas and found one that would *only* charge $125.00....so I thought. ALLLLLL of the civil surgeons that I called will NOT just transfer the information, he HAD to do a complete physical, but suppovisely no extra shots were to be given !!! So we get there this morning (oh and by the way, this is the same place where Shemonya went and it only cost her $11.00 about a year ago)....Craig had to fill out about 15 different forms with ALLLL kinds of BS. Even on his 693 form the doctor at Andrews had checked off "not age appropriate" for the Hepatitis shot, BUT ...they would not accept that and we had to pay an additional $97.00 for just that flippin shot !! OH and they would not take his Xray's as proof of a TB test. So he had to get that and he has to go back in 2 days for them to *look* at his arm and then we have to wait a week for the bloodwork to all come back and go back and get the forms.

It seems that the "new deal", at least in Maryland (and Delaware), that they HAVE to do a complete Physical and no exceptions!!!

So the total .....$205.00 and 2 visits back ! Argh....

Kelly - that medical office signed Damien's paperwork August 2005...I'm sure things have changed since then. The office manager knew exactly what I was talking about when I called...maybe she's no longer employed there.

Hello VJ family.

[brownnskinn 0]

Today has been particulary very hard for me. Im doing my best to try to compose myselft at work without bursting into tears. I just cant understand. I prayed & waited for this for so long. I am at a loss. I am at a loss, I am at a loss.

Texas I am so sorry that you have to go thru this. Let the tears flow, that is the first step to healing

I agree, I want to kind of say that you will feel better soon, but that dosen't really help you feel better. I think about you often. I understand that you are at a loss, I put myself in your shoes everyday. I think a special angel was looking out for you, when he took this person out of your life. I think you would feel a whole lot worse had this person hada came into our home, invading your space, sat while you took care of him for months, living off you and God forbit, actually bonded with your son and then up and left Still I am so sorry this happened to God doesn't bring you anything you cannot handle. I'll pray that he brings you peace.

[Shemmy 4]

I agree, I want to kind of say that you will feel better soon, but that dosen't really help you feel better. I think about you often. I understand that you are at a loss, I put myself in your shoes everyday. I think a special angel was looking out for you, when he took this person out of your life. I think you would feel a whole lot worse had this person hada came into our home, invading your space, sat while you took care of him for months, living off you and God forbit, actually bonded with your son and then up and left Still I am so sorry this happened to God doesn't bring you anything you cannot handle. I'll pray that he brings you peace.

Ditto. Texas Bound - we are here for you

[BelwinMills 0]

Ok just stopping in for a sec I have to get back to work. I will read later

[brownnskinn 0]

Hi guys... I just wanted to drop in and see how everyone else was doing...Eric, I'm so glad that your wife finally made it...it gives me some sliver of hope that maybe things will work out for me and my fiance...speaking of which...I'm really here to vent....so bear with me...

I knew this whole denial thing was going to be hard on us. I knew to expect rough times, and in a sense, some form of change in our relationship, but I just wasn't prepared to what extent. Honestly, the last couple of months have been the most emotionally and mentally taxing I have ever experienced in my lifetime...I would never wish this kind of turmoil on my worst enemy. I know that we both still very much want to be together and we have every intention on getting married...its just the fact that we really won't be able to be together for another 3 years...what's making it even more difficult is the fact that a few of his friends have gotten married lately, and a couple of my friends have recently become mothers and are doing the whole family thing, and it's just been like, "why can't this be me?" "when will we ever get to experience this happiness?" We both have gone through great lengths to try not to let this whole thing affect how we are with each other, but for as much as we try, it doesn't seem to be working...We haven't been able to see each other for months because I work full time, am a full-time graduate student, and am completing my graduate internship now--20+ hours a week! On top of that, I will be relocating in June to NC, so I haven't had the time, energy, or $$ to go and see him...He always says that he understands why I can't come, but I know it bothers him when he asks when is the next time I'm coming, and all I can give him is an "i don't know"...his whole demeanor becomes so sad, which makes me feel even worse....lately, I've been afraid to call him (although I do and vice versa) because I never know how our conversation is going to end up...there's been yelling and crying and so many apologies, not because anyone has done anything in particular to one another, but just because we are so fed up with this whole thing. I know that God will not give you any more than you can bear, but honestly, I'm not sure if that's true. I talked to him this morning, and for once, it seemed like I had my baby back. He got moved to a permanent position at work and he feels really good about it, so hopefully this will make him feel a little better. A lot of our yelling has been a result of a lot of BS with the way things are going for him at work--how they make him work for weeks at a time b4 giving him a day off, how when it's time to get paid, there's always something mysteriously wrong with the computer system and they can't get their money on that day and so on....I know how frustrating that can be, an unfortunately there's nothing that I can do for him...which drives me even more crazy and leads to me feeling frustrated and sometimes lashing out as well...I don't know...I just feel like I'm in the middle of craziness at this point. I asked him if he thought we should push the wedding back, and he asked "what for?" He was like, if we did that, he felt like he would just die, because there's nothing else that he wants more. And I believe him...His mother even called me to tell me how down he's been and she was wondering what was going on...she's worried about him...and his best friend called the other night to check on me, and to tell me that he was doing his best to take care of him...I just wish that I could be with him right now and support him and hold him and let him know how much I love him...I tell him as much as I can, but sometimes you just need to "feel" the warmth of that person next to you....Sorry for making this so long, but I just needed someone to talk to...Thanks for listening (or not! lol) You guys have a great day

Tamisha

Have you guys not seen each other sinse the interview? Are you still getting your Masters in May? Can you go after you graduate? Is he still wanting the relationship? Things sound pretty busy for you , It sounds worse for him, If it were me. I would hi-tail it down here and see my man!!! I wish you both the best.