Depression

[Risto 0]

All the ####### that has been going on in my life for the past 5 months (Immigration, financial problems, my illness...etc), has finally gotten to me. I can barely keep my head up. So many things are just piling up and I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. keith works ten hours a day so i am usually alone in my thoughts. I dont sleep at night because I am up with worry, I am always in physical pain because of whatever is wrong with me, my anxiety attacks, our pastor got arrested so our arrangement with being the childrens pastors and not having to pay rent because of it is no longer valid and they are selling the apartment we are currently living in to pay off some stuff, Canada is now demanding money from me because they said they gave me too much money on my income tax and I cant afford it right now, Doctor's bills up the A$$, I havent heard anything about my AOS for almost two months, I miss my family and my friends, I am fighting with my mother, my self-esteem has yet again plummeted, I'm exhausted and stressed out.

I really dont know how to go on.

Sorry for the rambling, I just had to let it out, and Keith is at work so I just posted it here.

Hang on Good times will come

[#@!!* 0]

I am so glad to see that you are feeling brighter today and that you are taking definate pro-active steps.

Please never, ever, feel that you cannot rant or vent to people here. People care about you and will listen. Sometimes places like this only thing that helps us keep grounded.

Good luck at the docs tomorrow.

[Widge 0]

He also suggested putting me back on anti-depressant meds (been on them before, I have a disorder) but I said no because I really dont want to rely on meds my whole life to make me happy. I think I may just go back on for a while to sort myself out.

Blessings.

If we have diabetes we happily take insulin everyday for the rest of our lives

If we have high blood pressure we take a pill everyday for the rest of our lives

If we have a dysfunctional thyroid we take take a pill everyday for the rest of our lives

SO how come when our brain chemistry is a tad dysfunctional we run kicking and screaming from taking a pill everyday for the rest of our lives.

Societies attitudes to mental illness really need to change

This is not a critcism of you, just a total observation of the way we all think - I too have suffered with severe depression and been medicated. I wish you all the good health and better days ahead in the world, I know all too well the places you are at and they arent good.

[Alex+R 0]

He also suggested putting me back on anti-depressant meds (been on them before, I have a disorder) but I said no because I really dont want to rely on meds my whole life to make me happy. I think I may just go back on for a while to sort myself out.

Blessings.

If we have diabetes we happily take insulin everyday for the rest of our lives

If we have high blood pressure we take a pill everyday for the rest of our lives

If we have a dysfunctional thyroid we take take a pill everyday for the rest of our lives

SO how come when our brain chemistry is a tad dysfunctional we run kicking and screaming from taking a pill everyday for the rest of our lives.

Societies attitudes to mental illness really need to change

This is not a critcism of you, just a total observation of the way we all think - I too have suffered with severe depression and been medicated. I wish you all the good health and better days ahead in the world, I know all too well the places you are at and they arent good.

We have depression in my family and my mother, who does not actually suffer from it, has described it in a similar way to how you just did. She says, though, that anti-depressants are like contacts or glasses. The way you see the world without your glasses is "natural" but not the way the world really *is* and the same goes for anti-depressants. Your natural outlook on life is through depression. When you take anti-depressants, you can see the world the way it *is*... Being very vision-impaired, I certainly understood that!

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If we have diabetes we happily take insulin everyday for the rest of our lives

If we have high blood pressure we take a pill everyday for the rest of our lives

If we have a dysfunctional thyroid we take take a pill everyday for the rest of our lives

SO how come when our brain chemistry is a tad dysfunctional we run kicking and screaming from taking a pill everyday for the rest of our lives.

Societies attitudes to mental illness really need to change

This is not a critcism of you, just a total observation of the way we all think - I too have suffered with severe depression and been medicated. I wish you all the good health and better days ahead in the world, I know all too well the places you are at and they arent good.

You make a very good point and have thought the same thing before. The difference with me was like night and day when i was on meds. I have been battling with should I, shouldnt I for so long I am starting to lean towards going back before I make myself really sick. They're there to help you right? That's what medication is for.

I have also started dancing again the past couple of days. Last night I played a CD and went at it for 2 hours, it helped me get rid of some of my frustrations. It also has helped relieve tension and stress greatly and I feel better about myself doing it. Plus perhaps it will help these stubborn 10 pounds that just seem to not want to leave lol.

We have depression in my family and my mother, who does not actually suffer from it, has described it in a similar way to how you just did. She says, though, that anti-depressants are like contacts or glasses. The way you see the world without your glasses is "natural" but not the way the world really *is* and the same goes for anti-depressants. Your natural outlook on life is through depression. When you take anti-depressants, you can see the world the way it *is*... Being very vision-impaired, I certainly understood that!

Thats also a very good point! I'm as blind as a bat, so I totally understand it too!

[*Robert* 2]

I like both of those analogies. Well said!

[Fuzzness 2]

I was on medication. I had the same attitude that a lot of people seem to have these days and thats that the meds will cure. I finally got pissed with it all and went off the meds and adopted a new philosophy on life and look where I am today!

Hang in there Stina... you're an awesome person, you deserve to be happy

[Donna A 4]

just think of it this way...u have hit rock bottom so u cant fall any farther so the only thing now is to move up. everything will be ok.

[sarah and hicham 3]

All the ####### that has been going on in my life for the past 5 months (Immigration, financial problems, my illness...etc), has finally gotten to me. I can barely keep my head up. So many things are just piling up and I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. keith works ten hours a day so i am usually alone in my thoughts. I dont sleep at night because I am up with worry, I am always in physical pain because of whatever is wrong with me, my anxiety attacks, our pastor got arrested so our arrangement with being the childrens pastors and not having to pay rent because of it is no longer valid and they are selling the apartment we are currently living in to pay off some stuff, Canada is now demanding money from me because they said they gave me too much money on my income tax and I cant afford it right now, Doctor's bills up the A$$, I havent heard anything about my AOS for almost two months, I miss my family and my friends, I am fighting with my mother, my self-esteem has yet again plummeted, I'm exhausted and stressed out.

I really dont know how to go on.

Sorry for the rambling, I just had to let it out, and Keith is at work so I just posted it here.

what is depressing you? you are with your husband. I dont know why you are depressed

about these panny yanny issues. stop fightin with your mom - thats insane! there are people on here that dont have a mom or family. your family miss you if you wanna see them then GO. but, your being depressed over bills and #######- things you cant control. you will always have bills and taxes thats life. Your depression will start to get in your marriage. I know your husband want to see you happy. so figure out how to do that.

Stina I hope you feel better I'm sorry about this and I understand the money issues, they can really freak you out.

We all get to express ourselves and what makes us depressed, sad, etc. so even if your reason for these feelings ARE NOT 1 YEAR OF AR like someone else, they are totally understandable and I sincerely hope you feel better. Everyone has things they worry about some get more upset about certain things than others do so don't listen to someone who will tell you your issues are panny yanny.

[iceyspots 0]

All the ####### that has been going on in my life for the past 5 months (Immigration, financial problems, my illness...etc), has finally gotten to me. I can barely keep my head up. So many things are just piling up and I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. keith works ten hours a day so i am usually alone in my thoughts. I dont sleep at night because I am up with worry, I am always in physical pain because of whatever is wrong with me, my anxiety attacks, our pastor got arrested so our arrangement with being the childrens pastors and not having to pay rent because of it is no longer valid and they are selling the apartment we are currently living in to pay off some stuff, Canada is now demanding money from me because they said they gave me too much money on my income tax and I cant afford it right now, Doctor's bills up the A$$, I havent heard anything about my AOS for almost two months, I miss my family and my friends, I am fighting with my mother, my self-esteem has yet again plummeted, I'm exhausted and stressed out.

I really dont know how to go on.

Sorry for the rambling, I just had to let it out, and Keith is at work so I just posted it here.

what is depressing you? you are with your husband. I dont know why you are depressed

about these panny yanny issues. stop fightin with your mom - thats insane! there are people on here that dont have a mom or family. your family miss you if you wanna see them then GO. but, your being depressed over bills and #######- things you cant control. you will always have bills and taxes thats life. Your depression will start to get in your marriage. I know your husband want to see you happy. so figure out how to do that.

I've bolded 9 references. Maybe reading something before you insult someone would help.

And also with your reasoning, from now on, anyone who has their husband or wife with them in the states has NO right to be depressed over anything!

[Marilyn. 340]

I am sorry you are going through this difficult time, Stina... I kind of know how it feels, my hubby works from 12 to 15 hours a day... from 3pm till sometimes 5 or 5:30 am .. so basically I only see him sleeping during the week ....

My family is 1000 miles away and I was planning on going for a visit earlier this month but with being pregnant and saving up money... I decided not to go....

I am tired some people saying that you should always be happy because at least you are with your hubby.... I am very happy to be with my hubby but my hubby can't be the only source of my happiness... I need to make myself happy but I haven't quite figured out how to do that yet ...

Things can only look up from here, Stina...

Edited August 18, 2006 by MarilynP

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I am tired some people saying that you should always be happy because at least you are with your hubby.... I am very happy to be with my hubby but my hubby can't be the only source of my happiness... I need to make myself happy but I haven't quite figured out how to do that yet ...

Things can only look up from here, Stina...

I am tired of that too.

Yes, you finally get to be with your hubby, its great, I love him so much! But life still continues...

Thanks

Edited August 18, 2006 by Stina

[sarah and hicham 3]

I am tired some people saying that you should always be happy because at least you are with your hubby.... I am very happy to be with my hubby but my hubby can't be the only source of my happiness... I need to make myself happy but I haven't quite figured out how to do that yet ...

Things can only look up from here, Stina...

I am tired of that too.

Yes, you finally get to be with your hubby, its great, I love him so much! But life still continues...

Thanks

That couldnt have been said better! Being with your loved one doesn't solve everything. You go from missing your wife/husband to missing your family back home. It's a tough situation.

Good luck I hope you feel better soon. Kisses,

Sarah

[*Robert* 2]

When it comes to medication, especially for things like depression, its easy for people to make fun of, because they don't truly understand what its like. "Medication" these days seems to have a whole new meaning than in the past, when it was more serious.