The Vent Part Quatre

[Ontarkie 14,143]

Sorry for your loss

[ashenflowers 5]

Oh geez... I'm sorry Tick Tock *hugs*

[Tick Tock 3]

Thank you both.

[Kathryn41 3,205]

I'm sorry, too.

[Danu 19]

Oh dear Tick Tock, I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family. I love Kathryn's idea with the letter, it might help you feel better to do something like that. *big hugs*

[OBX 51]

My deepest sympathies.

[SpiritAlight 1]

Condolences TickTock.

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In removal of conditions mode.

Bleh.

Why did I wait so/too long for more letters from friends to include in package?

Sent package over a month "late"!

Bleh.

Everything takes too long.

Bleh.

Everything costs too much.

Bleh.

Everything feels (is) ridiculous.

Bleh.

Can't bring cellphones with us to BioMatrix? Ridiculous!! Why??

Hmph.

Bleh.

When do we stop asking for approval, and just live?

Bleh.

Guilty before innocent.

Bleh.

The immigration process (still) sucks.

Bleh.

Why was it not a one step deal??????

Grrrrrrrrr.......

Either we are in, or we are out.

K.I.S.S.

Oh well, I was sick of it before it even started.

Go figure.

Bleh.

/vent

Okay, not every thing.

Edited August 2, 2010 by SpiritAlight

[Kimbear 53]

OH tick tock, i'm so very sorry for your loss. At least you were able to say a few words to him on the phone, he may not have replied but i'm sure he heard you.

[Tick Tock 3]

Again, thank you guys for your warm thoughts. Kimbear - he was talking to me, but I just couldn't hear him as his voice was so quiet and the machine was so loud. I got to talk to some family on the phone today and when things die down, my grandmother was saying we could see each other over the webcam again. I hope I can get my computer fixed before then, but I can always use another if that doesn't happen in time.

It still irks me that my mother felt/feels/whatever about me not caring about things because I'm a country away. I could've sworn I tried to explain that I avoid things (like calling) because I have no good news and they usually have bad news or questions. I care, but I can't do anything about their issues when I have my own that are unresolved - and beyond that, there's not that much happy idle talk. Mind you, they never called often at any point so I could turn around and thing that they don't care much about me unless they have negative news.

Yay for family.

@ SpiritAlight

Everything takes too long.

Bleh.

Everything costs too much.

Bleh.

Everything feels (is) ridiculous.

Bleh.

When do we stop asking for approval, and just live?

Bleh.

Guilty before innocent.

Bleh.

The immigration process (still) sucks.

Bleh.

Why was it not a one step deal??????

Grrrrrrrrr.......

Either we are in, or we are out.

K.I.S.S.

Oh well, I was sick of it before it even started.

Go figure.

Bleh.

I concur with these sentiments and I'm still working towards AOS! I hope that your ROC goes smoothly - maybe late, but it's still sent off.

[Gemmie 142]

Really sorry, Tick Tock.

It's a shame that you have a sad memory of him as your last, but try to remember the one you had before that, when he smiled and got to see your husband, etc.

It's also a shame that your mum thought/thinks you don't care. I think it's difficult for family to realise that just because you had a hard decision to make (moving countries) to make yourself happy, it doesn't mean you no longer care about the ones left behind. Maybe you could explain that to her the next time you talk. Sometimes it's draining to have to call home when you have no good news, and then listen to negative things on the other end.

[Tick Tock 3]

The happy memory is definitely the one I'm focusing on. Thank you, Gemmie.

I am pretty sure I tried to explain to my mom already - my dad and brother were present too - but it was such a long, mind-numbing sort of "we're trying to have an intervention with you and get you to come back to Canada with us" thing. Which is a whole other beast in its own category. I think they'll never be fully happy or accepting of what has transpired, or what will transpire in the future. I am hoping that when I have finished with AOS, they'll be "calmed" a bit. Beyond the AOS and attempting to further explain, there's not much I can do. I'll be calling them again to check up on them since funeral proceedings are underway, but honestly... Everyone sounded like they were coping just fine without me. I'm sure relatives back "home" are thinking poorly of me for not being present for the family affair, but there is nothing I can do about that.

[Gemmie 142]

It's a good attitude to have, people will think what they want at the end of it all. God knows my own family think that I abandoned them, and it did come out more when my own grandfather passed away because I couldn't make it to the funeral. Bit it did pass. Hopefully they'll accept it more as times goes on.

[Ontarkie 14,143]

I agree with Gemmie, hopefully with time things will get better.

My vent for today is that I worked very hard to avoid most of my food allergies. My rash and hives are gone, I haven't really notice any difference in how I feel. I was wondering if it was even worth me avoiding wheat, corn and tomato products if I didn't notice a difference. Since I am allergic to soy, milk, eggs, and a few more things like pickled and fermented stuff. There's more but you get the picture.

Anyways since I didn't feel any affects after 3 weeks maybe I need to avoid more things. So the weekend I ate well pretty much everything I was avoiding and boy do I feel bad. What a mistake, my head felt like it was going to explode, I got a major migraine, was so stuffy more then I have been, got dizzy and light headed and became to tired I had to lay down. I slept from 12pm to 7pm. I can never sleep that long normally in the after noon, I stayed tired all night and today I'm still wiped right out. So now I'm back to avoiding wheat corn and tomatoes, I may start with a few other things too. Maybe I need to stay away from them alot longer before I actually feel a different. I know my body sure didn't like it when I ate them again. Still feeling like ####### so might as well start again with a fresh reminder of why I doing this.

just an added annoyance is having to make supper for everyone else and I can't eat it.

Edited August 2, 2010 by Ontarkie

[Tick Tock 3]

It's a good attitude to have, people will think what they want at the end of it all. God knows my own family think that I abandoned them, and it did come out more when my own grandfather passed away because I couldn't make it to the funeral. Bit it did pass. Hopefully they'll accept it more as times goes on.

*Big hug* I am glad your family's feelings on the issue passed.

I agree with Gemmie, hopefully with time things will get better.

My vent for today is that I worked very hard to avoid most of my food allergies. My rash and hives are gone, I haven't really notice any difference in how I feel. I was wondering if it was even worth me avoiding wheat, corn and tomato products if I didn't notice a difference. Since I am allergic to soy, milk, eggs, and a few more things like pickled and fermented stuff. There's more but you get the picture.

Anyways since I didn't feel any affects after 3 weeks maybe I need to avoid more things. So the weekend I ate well pretty much everything I was avoiding and boy do I feel bad. What a mistake, my head felt like it was going to explode, I got a major migraine, was so stuffy more then I have been, got dizzy and light headed and became to tired I had to lay down. I slept from 12pm to 7pm. I can never sleep that long normally in the after noon, I stayed tired all night and today I'm still wiped right out. So now I'm back to avoiding wheat corn and tomatoes, I may start with a few other things too. Maybe I need to stay away from them alot longer before I actually feel a different. I know my body sure didn't like it when I ate them again. Still feeling like ####### so might as well start again with a fresh reminder of why I doing this.

just an added annoyance is having to make supper for everyone else and I can't eat it.

Thank you Ontarkie (in reference to the bolded line).

I am very sorry to hear you had such a terrible reaction. I hope that as time goes on, you will feel different/better from not having those foods in your system. Maybe it will help you if you can find a few very tasty recipes that don't involve wheat, corn and tomatoes - so you can make that for your whole family to enjoy together.

Edited August 3, 2010 by Tick Tock

[Ban Hammer 13,135]

my rant for the day - people who use the bathroom and don't flush afterward.

i put up a sign in there "this is not an art museum - flush your masterpieces"