Commies 4 Christ...Redux Part Deux

[ValerieA 350]

I have never been a violent person. At the height of my powers I was always calm. Now, I have rage attacks for no apparent reason. I just want the fog to clear, to behave the way I used to, not worry about Life, just live it.. No hissy fits, no temper tantrums, no panic attacks, just dead calm. I know I'd be a real mess without you guyz and I know that you guyz are always around and I love you guyz right back.

OK. You are normally a calm person. Why did that change? Was it the death of your mother? Or, as I suspect, did it come a little later than that? Some additional contributing factor?

Hon, I love you. I am not a counselor. But, I do know, that if you talk about things to SOMEONE, it takes some of the pressure off. Been there, done that.

[ValerieA 350]

I have never been a violent person. At the height of my powers I was always calm. Now, I have rage attacks for no apparent reason. I just want the fog to clear, to behave the way I used to, not worry about Life, just live it.. No hissy fits, no temper tantrums, no panic attacks, just dead calm. I know I'd be a real mess without you guyz and I know that you guyz are always around and I love you guyz right back.

By the way, about the bolded parts? FY. We are all allowed this at times. Life is not perfect. Sometimes we need to scream.

Cinco, I see you down there. Have you cleaned out your inbox on here? I really wish the chat function worked, I hate how public this is. But I can't just leave this. I am afeared for you.

[BishopM 114]

I have never been a violent person. At the height of my powers I was always calm. Now, I have rage attacks for no apparent reason. I just want the fog to clear, to behave the way I used to, not worry about Life, just live it.. No hissy fits, no temper tantrums, no panic attacks, just dead calm. I know I'd be a real mess without you guyz and I know that you guyz are always around and I love you guyz right back.

We are not interested in your history brother, but it does add clarity. What we are interested in is your postings in this thread which are contrary to your well being. This is all we know.

And, personally, I would like to see you in Heaven. Now, think about this, has anyone said this to you before? I'm saying it to you now. I think they have a great open bar there ;-) (sorry...but, I am a jerkolatito)

Again, will you bless us in this thread?

Edited July 6, 2010 by BishopM

[ValerieA 350]

CINCO. TALK TO US. PLEASE. I never beg (ask my husband LOL)

[IR5FORMUMSIE 850]

Brother, you have an amazing potential for love an assitance through love. We ALL feel this from you! That is why we look to you for a compassionate blessing, because you have the potential to bestow the blessing that we long for, from your compassionate heart! We empathize what you've been through, but we selfishly need you. Feed us.

Lord, soften my heart, open my eyes to THE TRUTH that you sent to me from many tongues and in many manners. Make me among the humble and pious and not among those who trangress and wear garbs of arrogance to cover their hearts. I seek your assistance and your strength not only in myself but in those who you sent to strengthen and protect me. Guide them as I am guided to lower my head and bend my knee to accept your blessings. Let your LOVE flow from this tiny vessel until all the Oceans cannot constraint it. Never let my foolishness and insolence make me stray from your path for the rest of my days. :innocent:

[BishopM 114]

= I am afeared for you.

Blessed Val...don't be afeard

you are blessed...from the Bji!

[ValerieA 350]

Lord, soften my heart, open my eyes to THE TRUTH that you sent to me from many tongues and in many manners. Make me among the humble and pious and not among those who trangress and wear garbs of arrogance to cover their hearts. I seek your assistance and your strength not only in myself but in those who you sent to strengthen and protect me. Guide them as I am guided to lower my head and bend my knee to accept your blessings. Let your LOVE flow from this tiny vessel until all the Oceans cannot constraint it. Never let my foolishness and insolence make me stray from your path for the rest of my days. :innocent:

Stop shrouding yourself in words. TALK to us. Tell us what is really going on.

Or I'll kick you azz

[BishopM 114]

Lord, soften my heart, open my eyes to THE TRUTH that you sent to me from many tongues and in many manners. Make me among the humble and pious and not among those who trangress and wear garbs of arrogance to cover their hearts. I seek your assistance and your strength not only in myself but in those who you sent to strengthen and protect me. Guide them as I am guided to lower my head and bend my knee to accept your blessings. Let your LOVE flow from this tiny vessel until all the Oceans cannot constraint it. Never let my foolishness and insolence make me stray from your path for the rest of my days. :innocent:

No! Absolutely NO!

This is typical 'you' my beloved brother! Hiding behind words of grace while commiserating and infecting me. Why would you do such?

[IR5FORMUMSIE 850]

By the way, about the bolded parts? FY. We are all allowed this at times. Life is not perfect. Sometimes we need to scream.

Cinco, I see you down there. Have you cleaned out your inbox on here? I really wish the chat function worked, I hate how public this is. But I can't just leave this. I am afeared for you.

My inbox has been cleared. I'm going to make it. I have more than enough moments of lucidity to get by, until I get the help I need. Please don't be afraid, I'm not going to hurt myself or anyone else.

[BishopM 114]

Stop shrouding yourself in words. TALK to us. Tell us what is really going on.

Or I'll kick you azz

BelovedSisterVal...you and I absolutely rule!

[ValerieA 350]

Blessed Val...don't be afeard

you are blessed...from the Bji!

Bishop, I do not deserve what I have been blessed with. But, it has made me cognizant of the people around me in my daily life who have had to deal with unreal horrors. I can't believe that some of these situations exist, but they do. I almost gave up my career to work in underprivileged areas, but I met my husband first. I still believe we need to help out elsewhere. I have been overprivileged my entire life, moreso than him, but we have so much that we can give.

Edited July 6, 2010 by ValerieA

[BishopM 114]

My inbox has been cleared. I'm going to make it. I have more than enough moments of lucidity to get by, until I get the help I need. Please don't be afraid, I'm not going to hurt myself or anyone else.

...but...you are hurting others brother5...and you know you are hurting others...and you know who specifically I am talking about...

[ValerieA 350]

BelovedSisterVal...you and I absolutely rule!

Nah, we don't just rule. We ROCK!

[IR5FORMUMSIE 850]

Stop shrouding yourself in words. TALK to us. Tell us what is really going on.

Or I'll kick you azz

I feel out of sorts. I don't feel like myself. I have an itch that I can't scratch. I don't know what it is but I have this sensation that I should be doing something but I fear that I won't be able to do it. I feel that I am out of time, even if there is plenty of it. I don't know how to describe the feelings that I am having any better than that. Something is wrong but I can't quite put my finger on it.

[ValerieA 350]

...but...you are hurting others brother5...and you know you are hurting others...and you know who specifically I am talking about...

I don't know who the others are, other than the Commies. I don't need to know. But, Cinco, know that I care, OK? All of us do.

Damn. Poker game not going so well.