HELP, WHERE DO I GET AED RENEWAL FORMS?

[cutie_nauthy 0]

I read your affidavit before it was deleted, I was definetely shocked to say the least, I'm guessing the reason it was deleted was because you forgot to delete All the names in it (including ex husband) not a good idea on such a public website and since he's not here to defend his name it's best to not reveal his name on here. But your affidavit really hit home to me how some new foreign wives can be at the complete mercy of their new husbands and how badly things can go wrong, maybe delete all the references to names/addresses/personal information and post it again, you could potentially help someone else going through the same situation or even those thinking about taking a leap of faith to join their new husband in a foreign country.

hi there shani,

thanks for the reply.. now, I remember that i didn't really delete all the infos on my attached file.. I was really in a hurry when i wrote my reply comments.. oh well, what is done is done now..

my bad anyways... I really deleted the attached files last night and I don't know if i would like to re post it again for if I do? that means I have to read it all over again before I will repost it and I don't want to re read it all over again for am trying to move on and forget my dark past... huh?! up to now, am still in trauma and i don't know if i could be a normal again?! I am always isolating myself and my life only evolves with my loved job and home!! aside from that, nothing - i spend most of my free time here online or just seating around here in my room thinking of what will happen for me in the future?! huh?! I don't really know and only GOD knows what is in store for me?!

thanks again for all the replies..

lostlady---

[FortLaudy 10]

hi there shani,

thanks for the reply.. now, I remember that i didn't really delete all the infos on my attached file.. I was really in a hurry when i wrote my reply comments.. oh well, what is done is done now..

my bad anyways... I really deleted the attached files last night and I don't know if i would like to re post it again for if I do? that means I have to read it all over again before I will repost it and I don't want to re read it all over again for am trying to move on and forget my dark past... huh?! up to now, am still in trauma and i don't know if i could be a normal again?! I am always isolating myself and my life only evolves with my loved job and home!! aside from that, nothing - i spend most of my free time here online or just seating around here in my room thinking of what will happen for me in the future?! huh?! I don't really know and only GOD knows what is in store for me?!

thanks again for all the replies..

lostlady---

I can understand you're going through hell after what happened to you as you probably came here thinking you're joining someone you wanted to spend the rest of your life with? I can only imagine. Have you ever thought about returning home to friends and family who will be there for you and be there to support you through this or are you tough enough to make it on your own in America? Don't sit at home on the internet all day, it's no way to live, the best way to meet new people is to get out there and be social, you have to force yourself, join a gym or a support group for divorced women, or Anything that will force you to be in a social setting with other people, really make it a goal to meet 1 or 2 new people every day, get out there and keep busy and productive is my best advice. Good luck sweetie, you'll be fine if you're strong and keep your head up.

[cutie_nauthy 0]

I can understand you're going through hell after what happened to you as you probably came here thinking you're joining someone you wanted to spend the rest of your life with? I can only imagine. Have you ever thought about returning home to friends and family who will be there for you and be there to support you through this or are you tough enough to make it on your own in America? Don't sit at home on the internet all day, it's no way to live, the best way to meet new people is to get out there and be social, you have to force yourself, join a gym or a support group for divorced women, or Anything that will force you to be in a social setting with other people, really make it a goal to meet 1 or 2 new people every day, get out there and keep busy and productive is my best advice. Good luck sweetie, you'll be fine if you're strong and keep your head up.

hi there Shani..

nice to see your reply.. and thanks so much for your concern and advices.. i do appreciated it much!!

i just got home from work.. well, my life only evolves with my job and I am quite happy with it even though I can't deny i that I felt lonely sometimes or I would say the times I am off from work..

I did tried to go out and socialize but with the life situation that I have right now it is pretty hard and I can't..

first is..

I don't have a car and I rode my bike from time to time - i used to ride my mountain bike 24miles/4hrs travel time/day..

now, just 30mins for luckily, i am xfered to a closer location.. my superiors are quite good to me and I do deserved it for I am a hard worker, not to brag but I am told and that is the truth!!

sometimes, I walk when it is so windy and hard to paddle my bike... I fought many life struggles I had here and since I was young and with all of that, It made me tougher and strong.. but I am not sure how strong I am.. at early age, i learn to be independent and finish my degree as early as I can and after a month I graduated I got a job!!

I may be alone and lonely but I love my life here now.. going back wouldn't do me anything good at all for one...

my parents doesn't care of me since then..

two...

life back in my country is more tougher than my life here in US..

three..

my friends, yes I do have few good friends but they can't help me as much I help myself - they need more help than I do!!

and I don't have a life over my country anymore, my life is here now - where I am.. with my good paying job(well, my earnings just enough to scrape by) and I do have a future goal - to be a DR or join the ARMY or NAVY, in a right time!! I do have lots of Future goals if I will stay here and if I go back to my country? the only thing I can picture out in my mind what will happen is ALL BLANK!

you see, over my country - there is age - height - personality discriminations! I am not saying I don't have good personality but it is my age that will henders me to get a job, am going to be 30 pretty soon this yr.. I am not that tall - 5"!

I like the way things goes here even though they are so quite different than the things I was used to but I am getting used to the things here now and the ways..

Furtheremore, YES! you are right.. when I decided to be with my husbamd and gave up everything I had over my country.. there is only one thing I have in my mind - to be with the person I will spend the rest of my life and build my dream family that I always dreamed!! I packed my life in a lil suitecase and happily flew here to be with my husband but what I didn't know is that it wouldn't happen the way I was hoping..... huh?!

on the other hand, as what I have said.. I am not sure if I am strong enough but based on all the struggles I have been through and survived?! I guess, I can make a life here in US! imagine, w/o a car, I always present at work and never been late and my superiors highly admires me and am lucky enough to have such supportive and understanding colleagues..

well anyways.. up here for now.. I need to go to bed for I will be running to boise early tomorrow for i got a call today from my immigration atty that there is one form she forgots to let me sign -bummer!

night shani.. thanks again.. xoxoxoxoxo..

lostlady

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[FortLaudy 10]

hi there Shani..

nice to see your reply.. and thanks so much for your concern and advices.. i do appreciated it much!!

i just got home from work.. well, my life only evolves with my job and I am quite happy with it even though I can't deny i that I felt lonely sometimes or I would say the times I am off from work..

I did tried to go out and socialize but with the life situation that I have right now it is pretty hard and I can't..

first is..

I don't have a car and I rode my bike from time to time - i used to ride my mountain bike 24miles/4hrs travel time/day..

now, just 30mins for luckily, i am xfered to a closer location.. my superiors are quite good to me and I do deserved it for I am a hard worker, not to brag but I am told and that is the truth!!

sometimes, I walk when it is so windy and hard to paddle my bike... I fought many life struggles I had here and since I was young and with all of that, It made me tougher and strong.. but I am not sure how strong I am.. at early age, i learn to be independent and finish my degree as early as I can and after a month I graduated I got a job!!

I may be alone and lonely but I love my life here now.. going back wouldn't do me anything good at all for one...

my parents doesn't care of me since then..

two...

life back in my country is more tougher than my life here in US..

three..

my friends, yes I do have few good friends but they can't help me as much I help myself - they need more help than I do!!

and I don't have a life over my country anymore, my life is here now - where I am.. with my good paying job(well, my earnings just enough to scrape by) and I do have a future goal - to be a DR or join the ARMY or NAVY, in a right time!! I do have lots of Future goals if I will stay here and if I go back to my country? the only thing I can picture out in my mind what will happen is ALL BLANK!

you see, over my country - there is age - height - personality discriminations! I am not saying I don't have good personality but it is my age that will henders me to get a job, am going to be 30 pretty soon this yr.. I am not that tall - 5"!

I like the way things goes here even though they are so quite different than the things I was used to but I am getting used to the things here now and the ways..

Furtheremore, YES! you are right.. when I decided to be with my husbamd and gave up everything I had over my country.. there is only one thing I have in my mind - to be with the person I will spend the rest of my life and build my dream family that I always dreamed!! I packed my life in a lil suitecase and happily flew here to be with my husband but what I didn't know is that it wouldn't happen the way I was hoping..... huh?!

on the other hand, as what I have said.. I am not sure if I am strong enough but based on all the struggles I have been through and survived?! I guess, I can make a life here in US! imagine, w/o a car, I always present at work and never been late and my superiors highly admires me and am lucky enough to have such supportive and understanding colleagues..

well anyways.. up here for now.. I need to go to bed for I will be running to boise early tomorrow for i got a call today from my immigration atty that there is one form she forgots to let me sign -bummer!

night shani.. thanks again.. xoxoxoxoxo..

lostlady

I really admire your strength and persistence, sometimes that's all you need to succeed in life, you have something that not much can take away from you: dedication, work ethic, education and persistence. You have really convinced me on the reasons you decide to stay here rather than go back home... it's so easy to suggest to someone "just go back to your friends and family" as a simple solution when they move here and have a hard time adjusting, but your reasons are valid and to me you seem like just the kind of person America needs as a citizen: determined and hard working. I have a feeling you'll do just fine !

[cutie_nauthy 0]

I really admire your strength and persistence, sometimes that's all you need to succeed in life, you have something that not much can take away from you: dedication, work ethic, education and persistence. You have really convinced me on the reasons you decide to stay here rather than go back home... it's so easy to suggest to someone "just go back to your friends and family" as a simple solution when they move here and have a hard time adjusting, but your reasons are valid and to me you seem like just the kind of person America needs as a citizen: determined and hard working. I have a feeling you'll do just fine !

hi there shani..

thanks for your wonderful words, appreciated it!

it is my second day off and I am seating here thinkin' of alot of things.. mostly for my future - it includes worries!

yesterday, i went to the store and as usual routine everytime I got paid - bought my groceries and i walk from here to the store - it is 30 40 minutes walk in cold weather!

it is always like this since I started(trying) to get back my own feet! i always walk to the store from my house and come back with heavy bags on my small hands and yesterday I did it again and my shoulders are so shore from lifting those 4bags full - heavy groceries(last December 2009 in the middle of heavy thick snow - i bought my groceries again and with a hamper and hanger and while walking with all heavy bags of groceries - hamper and hanger on my handful hands - a clever idea came on my mind and I did created an Instantst Grocery Hamper Slid - hahah) - cars passing by stared at me and just continued to thier journey while me doing same thing and in my mind - "i don't freaking care what they think of me carrying this heavy bags of groceries" - this is my life and got no choice - just to deal with it and beat w/ it!! huh?!

I don't complain much in my life here in America - i am just trying to beat the odds!

maybe you are right of what you've said on your reply here but as I can see it - I am just being myself(it is just so natural to a filipino like m to be hard workers - that is my country's pride) and my managers sees that too! I always get a good compliments from them and they wish that all employees is like me!! hahahah, i always blushed and couldn't say a word to reply to it - all i can do is smile and really thank them - am much happy that they accepts me of who I am and where I came from!! I do love my job much and it is my Life!

I am hoping what you said that I will just do right - I hope I can and can still hang on - oh well, one thing I have in me is that i have a "long patience" and it takes a brick to worn it out!! lolz!!

after this weekend off, i will be working 10days straight and I always beat it though it worns me out but am still happy and always in good mood for I tried to separate my personal and my work!

well, I just hope it doesn't snow again so that I won't b riding my mountain bike on the snow going to work just like last 31st of January!!

ok gatta dash now, need to do something else and thanks for taking time reading my post and replying it!

lostlady-----

ps. i attached here a picture of mind on that night I made a humper grocery slid!