Best wishes..

[JanaknJanet 0]

I wish to express to many I have met on my halted journey how much I appreciate the support and understanding that has been shown.

Due to some situations and information that I have become aware of I have decided to walk.

I have been committed and dedicated to the man I believed was doing the same. Unfortunaetly reality sets in .. and .. when one half of the equasion cannot fulfill the committment it has to end. .. Jan is in fact .. in reality.. STILL Married.. .. even tho he states he is "free to marry" in India.. that does not give him LEGALITY to marry in USA... .. four years ago he state he had the Legal divorce finalized and was simply awaiting a document. that has NEVER come to light.. .. after his travels to Rome on a business trip.. he returned even more distant than in past... it got me not only more irritated but simply more enlightened. .. a friend of mine who is as well from India.. explained to me .. that it is almost impossible for a Indian man Hindi to fulfill a divorce tru courts. and asked me if i was really sure he was divorced... well.. long story short... I asked Jan.. I need a answer... straght answer... was he divorced.. he simply answered. NO.. .. turned it around and said I knew that.... .. ohhh noooo.. not......I reminded him he said it was completed over three years ago... ..bla bla bla... mis understanding.. miscommunication.. cultural differences.. who knows....

Fact is Fact.. he is not Divorced... .. he is NOT free to express the things he has said.. nor make committments as he did. ..

He was confused... and couldnt understand why he cannot just come here and be with me.... ... .. I asked him. what part of .. BEING free to make that committment does he not understand.... .. he stated his love has not changed.. .. cant we just be together........ HELLLLLOOOO.. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE ..?? psahhh... I am nooooo sugar momma... .. I am not desperate... I need a man that is free to committ to me... who can give me him.. .. that I wont sit there thinking .. that anymoment.. the Xwife/or family can take away anything we built... What kind of future is that... .. hell it is NOOO future..

Janak said he talked to his lawyer.. and was told what he needed to do.. .. all of which is exactly the same of what he said he did four years ago... .. he then said he would take care of it. and do it. he said that the lawyer said it could take 2-5 more years... hellllloooo??/ what.. he said he would do what was needed... ... I was left in the conversation.. being told he will do it.. .. I asked should I call and see how things are? shojuld I be incontact with him? .. he left the conversation saying.. Ill e-mail you.... I asked .. so what I am to be on hold.. till a email.. he simply said . he would email.. and thus the conversation ended... he hung up.... ..

sitting dazed.. not sure if i had anything left to cry. i tried to decifer what just happened....

well.. now... it is almost 8 weeks since this conspired.... and I haev not heard a word... . ..

I did last week.. try to call.. but.. what I got was the .. phone ring then it goes dead.. obviously that he dropped the call. disconnecting it from his side.

NOOO ONE needs their life to be on hold like this.. I cannot say bad concerning this man.. .. I do believe there was something between us.. .. but.. simply said.. it is/was something that could not come to reality. Time has taken its tole.. ..

Whether or not his intentions were legit.. .. it is not something I can live with myself being placed on hold for...

Another year goes by.. and yet I am still the one sitting here .. alone... .. words are simply that words... ..

I cannot afford to place myself on hold due to uncertaintities..

Many will say..... he took me for a ride.. we all know that is what people say.. or .. I told you so.. etc..

but .. No one knows what we shared.. what we felt..... .. for that I am grateful to have had that.. if only for the short time I had.

There is no excuse for him to have dropped the ball..... .. .. if he was sincere now with the future of us.. I know I should have heard from him...

Soooooo Please... .. remember.. .. what we are doing now. is simply this.. a journey... learn.. enjoy... love... it can end at anytime...

Best of luck to all.. and hope you find your journey smoother... ..

love to all.. Janet

[forchika 4]

Oh wow....so sorry to hear your journey has ended!!!! From reading your post, I can say without a doubt you have done the right thing!!!!! Don't look back, just MOVE FORWARD!!!! Time is the healer of all wounds!!! I pray that you find the strength to remain open and free to love again!!! I wish you many blessings and good things happening in the future!!!!

Edited August 9, 2009 by forchika

[DanielParul 50]

I am sorry for what you had to put up with. I have been through a dirty divorce in India and it took 6 months not 4-5 years. I will pray for your heart. Its better now than later.

[ELW 5]

I'm soooo sorry Janet. Thanks so much for letting us know. I have no doubt both of you shared something special... but he could not choose and you got left hanging. I'm glad at least now you can make your own decision, I'm sure you will do the right thing; moving on will be best. Our support is always with you.