My Update

[Carlawarla 1]

Ill be honest with you guys...this has been one of the hardest years of my life...the split with D was one of the worst things I've ever lived thru, and it really turned my whole world upside down. I truly couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel...people would say 'chin up, it's get better' and whatnot, and I just didn't believe them. This was the first split in my life where I truly didn't want things to end, so it was so hard, and made me lose so much faith in myself, and I lost joy and hope for my future. I became jaded and cynical, and things were very dark this year.

I think I lost the weight purely in the amount of tears I shed, lol.

I'm not saying this for accolades; I share this with you all today because I am simply amazed at how life can change for the better on a dime... Its truly spectacular, and waking up everyday is just such a wonderful feeling cos the day is filled with joy again. It's not cos of this new guy...lol, ok maybe a little, but the secret I learned, which I was prolly slow on the uptake to begin with, is that people come and people go, but it's up to me to be happy, and now I feel I can do that no matter what. My happiness doesn't come from the affections of someone, it comes from within. And putting up walls to protect yourself sucks, cos in the end, sure, life is filled with hurt and bs, but eh, we suck it up and live to fight another day

No truer words have been spoken. I'm so happy for you Lisa, and so glad that you've shared this with us. Thank you for sharing.