I HATE goodbye days!

[Sherri and Matt 1]

Matt just went off to England to work after a week at home with us. At least that's what we call it, here is home, and he only leaves because he has to go to work. I only made it 4 days out of the week, without crying, but it didn't get real bad until this morning. I haven't thrown up yet so that's a plus I suppose.

I hate going to bed knowing counting the nights we have left. I hate waking up in the morning and counting the mornings we have left. I hate watching him pack. I hate the drive to the airport. I hate the bleeping airport! I hate the sympathy on people's faces when they look at me with my eyes a neon green, bloodshot, puffy mess, and my nose running. I hate walking away from him in departures, feeling his eyes watching me, and unable to turn around because if I do, I won't be able to keep walking. I hate starting to feel better on the drive home only to walk in and see him everywhere, smell him on the shirt he wore the last 2 days, that I kept because it smells like him, and feeling that knife twisting and twisting. I hate sitting here crying with BBC America on in the background, playing some stupid show, but needing it on right now because it sounds like him. I hate knowing this pain is the price I have to pay, for loving him so much, for having things so perfect when he is home, for being so happy with him. I hate being so afraid that I won't be able to keep having these days, that I just won't be able to take it anymore.

Am I just a big whiny baby?

Edited September 6, 2008 by Sherri and Matt

[Otto 83]

Am I just a big whiny baby?

Yes but we understand...

[rebeccajo 14]

Nope. You're not.

A couple of years from now, remember today. When you're annoyed with him because he spilled the sugar all over the counter or because he left the bathroom counter a mess. Or the money is tight or the car broke down.

Remember today. Remember the departure gate; remember the phone call that comes later to tell you arrived safely so far away; remember it all.

Remember the day. It'll still your tongue and calm your voice on the days ahead. When your life will be normal - happily normal with all the ups and downs of people who live together. Good and bad. But together.

[one...two...tree 2,762]

It's Saturday....plan a night out with friends to get your mind off of him....and enjoy yourself.

[caybee 21]

Nope. You're not.

A couple of years from now, remember today. When you're annoyed with him because he spilled the sugar all over the counter or because he left the bathroom counter a mess. Or the money is tight or the car broke down.

Remember today. Remember the departure gate; remember the phone call that comes later to tell you arrived safely so far away; remember it all.

Remember the day. It'll still your tongue and calm your voice on the days ahead. When your life will be normal - happily normal with all the ups and downs of people who live together. Good and bad. But together.

Good post, Rebeccajo. We have puffy-eyed photos from our last airport goodbye. I need to keep those pics close at hand for the times they're needed.

Sherri, I don't think there's a single person here who can't empathize. You will make it through step by step and day by day. In the meantime, cry it out all you need to. (F)

[Ms. Squirrel 11]

We are just about to leave to the airport and I am flying home after two wonderful weeks with Pedro. I know exactly how you feel.

[CaNdiD wiTcH 0]

I guess nobody loves goodbye.. It is normal to feel that way especially you have to face the fact that you need to be away with your loveones for the meantime. Although the situation would just be temporary, it is still painful. I do understand how you feel because almost everybody here is going through or have gone through the same thing.. You are not alone..

[Aubrey 10]

If you're a big whiny baby, then I'm one too. I have been posting the same stuff in the last few days in my July '08 thread. I've cried every day since it turned September, because it started an internal countdown till my SO leaves on the 19th. I wish there was more I could do for you to ease your pain, but I haven't been so great a easing my own either. Just know that you're not alone in your feelings, and you have a community that will be here for you to help you get through it.

[~Laura and Nick~ 5]

After parting, there is always a very empty feeling.

My myspace blog is filled with poems and pleads to the universe to give me back Nick and our time together....just waiting for our separation to end.

This will pass and RJ is so right.

I still remember those times...when things get crappy and you have little nit picky fights, I remember those days.

Those days where all I wanted in the whole world was to feel Nick's arms around me. They make the little fights so not worth it.

You'll be okay and soon you'll be together for good.

The funny thing is, no matter how painful and heartbreaking those first days apart were....I would relive a million of them to be with Nick.

I'd do this a million times over again.

[KiKi 0]

Believe it or not someday you might even miss those days......my hubby has been here three years now and the everyday routine does tend to dull the romance and excitement...etc.

I wouldn't want to go through it again, but it does hold a sort of wistful nostagia for me.....

[Brad and Vika 129]

Nope. You're not.

A couple of years from now, remember today. When you're annoyed with him because he spilled the sugar all over the counter or because he left the bathroom counter a mess. Or the money is tight or the car broke down.

Remember today. Remember the departure gate; remember the phone call that comes later to tell you arrived safely so far away; remember it all.

Remember the day. It'll still your tongue and calm your voice on the days ahead. When your life will be normal - happily normal with all the ups and downs of people who live together. Good and bad. But together.

[Marilyn. 340]

airport goodbyes are the worst thing ever....

I remember dropping him off and crying all the way home...

I am so glad those times are a thing of the past.....

just remember that all this will be a distant memory once you are together permanently...

[Imua 0]

Matt just went off to England to work after a week at home with us. At least that's what we call it, here is home, and he only leaves because he has to go to work. I only made it 4 days out of the week, without crying, but it didn't get real bad until this morning. I haven't thrown up yet so that's a plus I suppose.

I hate going to bed knowing counting the nights we have left. I hate waking up in the morning and counting the mornings we have left. I hate watching him pack. I hate the drive to the airport. I hate the bleeping airport! I hate the sympathy on people's faces when they look at me with my eyes a neon green, bloodshot, puffy mess, and my nose running. I hate walking away from him in departures, feeling his eyes watching me, and unable to turn around because if I do, I won't be able to keep walking. I hate starting to feel better on the drive home only to walk in and see him everywhere, smell him on the shirt he wore the last 2 days, that I kept because it smells like him, and feeling that knife twisting and twisting. I hate sitting here crying with BBC America on in the background, playing some stupid show, but needing it on right now because it sounds like him. I hate knowing this pain is the price I have to pay, for loving him so much, for having things so perfect when he is home, for being so happy with him. I hate being so afraid that I won't be able to keep having these days, that I just won't be able to take it anymore.

Am I just a big whiny baby?

aww honey believe me I know, I know - I felt like I would rather have a root canal without novocaine rather than leaving Govi last time - for Nepalis it isn't cool to cry in public but I was bawling my eyes out, I couldn't care less about losing face, I had just composed myself after saying goodbye for what I thought was the last time and then the nice guard let Govi hug and kiss me one more time, I was a wreck!!!!!! and he was crying a little too though he tried to hide it - men - I swore this would be the last goodbye even though it means I won't see him for a few more months - next time we will be getting on that plane TOGETHER.

[Imua 0]

Nope. You're not.

A couple of years from now, remember today. When you're annoyed with him because he spilled the sugar all over the counter or because he left the bathroom counter a mess. Or the money is tight or the car broke down.

Remember today. Remember the departure gate; remember the phone call that comes later to tell you arrived safely so far away; remember it all.

Remember the day. It'll still your tongue and calm your voice on the days ahead. When your life will be normal - happily normal with all the ups and downs of people who live together. Good and bad. But together.

:thumbs:

eta; I am sitting here crying now - i just miss him so much, tomorrow is a Hindu festival day and I wish he was here to share it with me - next year he will be, that is what I am telling myself but damn I still miss him sooooo much

Edited September 6, 2008 by Pattu Rani

[pedroh 21]