One more question...this time on commitment

[SpiritAlight 1]

Good Morning Tralimix,

Nice notice.

Hee, hee.

Yes, I dig and I dig.

And it does sound rather presumptuous or something, hmmmm, what word exactly....

to say that if someone is into their art there is not time for an SO.

I have met enough genius artist types to see that that usually is the case.

And I have seen where having more than one lover/intimate-friend brings out, inspires, different facets of a person; and when one needs inspiring, it is beneficial. That is why having friends of all ages and of all types works for me. I am a complex being that desires simplicity. Hee, hee. I do not do cocooning well. And I have felt isolated in my other life in Chicago. I did it to myself (hermitted and not branched out enough) and that is what is shifting now and will not continue when I get back. I will find my tribe! B)

And I can call myself an artist, a scientist, a philosopher....I feel I am all people.

Hee, hee.

And so...

Commitment

I have read lots

I have asked many many people

over many many years

the thing that makes most sense to me is this:

I can commit to showing up fully each day

and be true to my heart.

To do and be my best.

(Any other way of being feels like I am out of integrity and I have a real problem with that.)

This changes each day and I honour it.

Well, for the most part.

This is what this part of my journey is about.

To re-mind me (I write like this on purpose, some words need to be broken up and/or expanded upon).

It is not easy for those around me that are very close and/or watching me very closely (i.e. my mother, hee hee)...it never has been.

I love life and I experience it like this:

FULL STEAM AHEAD!

Does this mean I change like the wind?

Only if someone is watching a snapshot of my life.

When a person knows me a long time, and they can zoom out so to speak, they will see that I may be a storm at times and I may be clam seas, and I may be unpredictable, and I may take years to change something.

(Taurus with Leo rising and moon in Gemini...oh my...)

All of the above.

I feel like I can be the wild, everchanging wind

and be as huge and bright as the sun.

I can be a frightened kitty and I can be the lion.

It depends....it keeps changing.

and

Yes, my partner has his hands overly full....oh and he was warned.

I digress an awful lot. And I hope I answered my own question.

Today I will take my journal with me and muse on the beach and in my travels.

[Emancipation 2]

I think commitment to me has a lot to do with surrendering to another. On the outside it looks like a "prison" to many, but truly learning to please, enjoy, have deep connection with another is something that is restrictive in a small sense - i don't always get to watch the TV shows I like, sometimes we spend money in a place that if i was single I wouldn't spend money, or I sometimes have to go to an air show or two because my hubby really enjoys them, sometimes we make a big decision based on hubby's input that I otherwise would never have looked at that point of view, but it's freeing in many other senses because I have someone to live with and for. It's not a loss of my identity, it's an enhancement of it and learning to live with someone that is different than I points out many of my "issues" and allows me to work on my self, as well as accentuates my strengths when I see my hubbies "issues". We're a team and that commitment to each other has a beautiful way of keeping us on the same page, striving toward the same goal and never forgetting why we are doing this in the first place. Commitment means for me that there is an anchor for our relationship and because I'm having a bad hair day, a bad week with my emotions, or a blast of a temper, doesn't mean I have to fear my spouse leaving. He's there, committed no matter might come our way through illness, economic downturns and emotional issues. He will be there to support and encourage me. It's a different "commitment " than family (ie. kids, siblings, parents) because we are not "blood", but we've chosen each other out of the sea of faces that came across our life path and knew that this person was someone that we could forsake all others for. Not everyone can make that kind of commitment. I also think loads of people never find someone who is strong enough for their personality, their issues, etc. but because of loneliness end up with a mismatch for a partner, and destruction and chaos ensues.

I dunno.. that's how I see it anyway

[CDAgirlMI 51]

1 word to the above post:

wow

well written in my opinion...