Too late...?

[bubblyjellybelly 0]

Thanks for the advices... I admitted in some way I became too demanding (I think one or two minutes of call from him to tell me not to wait for him is being too demanding)... He choose not to chat with while I waited non-stop (not even sleeping and eating) for 2 days now.

Please don't think that he is not a good man, he has been so good to me, just that he did not even give a little of his time to me now that I am so weak and in the point of giving up...

Right now I feel so alone in a dark underground cave, and when ever I ask for help, I only hear my own echo. All my simple dreams has vanished, my dream to watch movie with him while having popcorn, my dream to wake up each morning seeing him right next to me, my dream of sharing a scoop of ice cream with him...

Did i dream too much?

I am just completely insane and numb as of this very moment... and I don't know how to get a new piece of heart because I think I lost my heart...

I am not supposed to come back here anymore, but I am posting this because somewhere in the corner of my brain I am still expecting that maybe, maybe he will realize how I am feeling right now...

God bless you all and please pray for me to be strong at this time of my life.

[♥ Teena♥ Joe♥ 0]

Thanks for the advices... I admitted in some way I became too demanding (I think one or two minutes of call from him to tell me not to wait for him is being too demanding)... He choose not to chat with while I waited non-stop (not even sleeping and eating) for 2 days now.

Please don't think that he is not a good man, he has been so good to me, just that he did not even give a little of his time to me now that I am so weak and in the point of giving up...

Right now I feel so alone in a dark underground cave, and when ever I ask for help, I only hear my own echo. All my simple dreams has vanished, my dream to watch movie with him while having popcorn, my dream to wake up each morning seeing him right next to me, my dream of sharing a scoop of ice cream with him...

Did i dream too much?

I am just completely insane and numb as of this very moment... and I don't know how to get a new piece of heart because I think I lost my heart...

I am not supposed to come back here anymore, but I am posting this because somewhere in the corner of my brain I am still expecting that maybe, maybe he will realize how I am feeling right now...

God bless you all and please pray for me to be strong at this time of my life.

I feel very sad reading your post, i dont know what to say. Don't you think its one sided love? And only your side is the one giving love and not receiving even a little? Now that he ignore you too much, do you think you can still go on or move on in your life. I dont want to say this because it might hurt you but i think he is getting tired of you? i am sorry to say that but thats how i feel reading your post.

I hope you will feel better and will realize that you are doing too much for him without getting even a little time from him as a return.

[shining_angel 0]

Oh bubbly,

I am so sorry to read your post. Hang on and rest assured that we will be praying for you. Please invite some friends or family to be with you. I do hope your fiance is well and no bad things happened that hindered him to talk to you. Be strong in the Lord!

Edited May 20, 2008 by shining_angel

[N360 0]

Thanks for the advices... I admitted in some way I became too demanding (I think one or two minutes of call from him to tell me not to wait for him is being too demanding)... He choose not to chat with while I waited non-stop (not even sleeping and eating) for 2 days now.

Please don't think that he is not a good man, he has been so good to me, just that he did not even give a little of his time to me now that I am so weak and in the point of giving up...

Right now I feel so alone in a dark underground cave, and when ever I ask for help, I only hear my own echo. All my simple dreams has vanished, my dream to watch movie with him while having popcorn, my dream to wake up each morning seeing him right next to me, my dream of sharing a scoop of ice cream with him...

Did i dream too much?

I am just completely insane and numb as of this very moment... and I don't know how to get a new piece of heart because I think I lost my heart...

I am not supposed to come back here anymore, but I am posting this because somewhere in the corner of my brain I am still expecting that maybe, maybe he will realize how I am feeling right now...

God bless you all and please pray for me to be strong at this time of my life.

Its hard to really know whats going in in your relationship because we're only hearing your side.

But let me tell you this, some men (or women) are affectionate, some arent. Some are quiet, some likes to talk. We all love differently.

I for example, talks to my wife everyday. Whether on webcam or on the phone I make a point to make time to talk to my wife for at least an hour. But most of the time we talk for a few hours every night. Sometimes, me and my wife dont even have anything to talk about. we play games, or just watch each other. Sometimes I dont understand how my wife can just sit there and "watch" me read or fold clothes or whatever, but I can see on her face how much she misses me and in turn I feel so loved.

But the point is... what I just told you is me and my wife's life. I love the way she loves me and vice versa.

You have to find the kind of love that suits you. Again... some men are affectionate, some arent. But just because your hubby is not affectionate in ways that you like or expect doesnt mean he does not love you. Im sure he does.

Its now your turn to ask yourself the question, Is the kind of love that my husband gives fulfill me? Ask any deranged stalker and Im sure they think they love the person they are stalking. The point is, there are many, many types of love. Find the one that suits you. Dont try to change someone to suit you.

Talk to your hubby and let him know how you're feeling. Maybe he does not know you feel alone. You two are the only ones that can resolve this. You are the only one that knows the answer to your questions really. They're there. you just have to listen.

Edited May 20, 2008 by NoelandTintin

[Tanjay 0]

Thanks for the advices... I admitted in some way I became too demanding (I think one or two minutes of call from him to tell me not to wait for him is being too demanding)... He choose not to chat with while I waited non-stop (not even sleeping and eating) for 2 days now.

Please don't think that he is not a good man, he has been so good to me, just that he did not even give a little of his time to me now that I am so weak and in the point of giving up...

Right now I feel so alone in a dark underground cave, and when ever I ask for help, I only hear my own echo. All my simple dreams has vanished, my dream to watch movie with him while having popcorn, my dream to wake up each morning seeing him right next to me, my dream of sharing a scoop of ice cream with him...

Did i dream too much?

I am just completely insane and numb as of this very moment... and I don't know how to get a new piece of heart because I think I lost my heart...

I am not supposed to come back here anymore, but I am posting this because somewhere in the corner of my brain I am still expecting that maybe, maybe he will realize how I am feeling right now...

God bless you all and please pray for me to be strong at this time of my life.

He does not even wish you to visit Visa Journey? I hope that he would allow you some time, to visit with friends.....Wishing you the best......Take Care & God Bless!!!