After the Bad Medical Experience

[JamesRachel 0]

Its been 4 months now, since I been having a Early Medical Exam at St. Lukes. I was excited in first place before i go at Slec and hoping that i can have my Medical result as early i was expected and wait my Interview time at USEM. But all the feelings was turned into Blue when they tell me that i will doing a sputum test and wait 2 months for culture result. Mixed emotions, Depress, disappointed, and Lonely all the expectation those time was really cant imagine and express.

After 6 weeks to wait they called me to go back at Slec and to get my result. Expected so much the result was good and there is no trouble in my health but then all the depression, disappointed and lonelyI felt was more worst when the Doctor confirm me that i was have a inactive TB and need to have a Medication it takes 6 months.....Lesson: Don`t too much expect too much it will make you disappointment and depress more. To make you unhappy and hard to accept the Reality. Do i hear it good when Doctor said 6 months of Treatment? You how long it was and to be waited again? 6 months of treatment and to be wait to be with my Husband again.

My husband was expected too that I dont have any problem with my Health. But those time the fate was not us, Im not lucky like others those time. Now, How do I tell my husband that I am going to have a 6 months medication? Where to I start to tell him that I was infected and have a TB that needs to have a 6 months Medication? Worried! Scared! I was so scared more to tell him co`z i was thought there was changes his feelings to me. ( Lesson: Trust you Husband/Fiancee/Fiance with all your Heart and Soul.)

But still I decided to call Him and tell him all what is going on my Medical result, unexpectedly in the middle of conversation tears was flow in my eyes when I explaining him whats going on but my Husband stay clam, listen, understand my feelings, cheer me up those time even I was know his feeling that he was affected too for my Medical result. Lesson: Don`t doubt his Love to you, He loves you much more than what you think think of.. My husband, My Love and My Best friend showed me how what Love more means and ear to listened my depression. I am Lucky have a husband and friend like him.

But, even i realized I am lucky. I still have made a DABDA. Denial= that i dont have a TB. Even I was start already my Medication at St. Luke I still deny that i dont have infected. Angry= to the people at SLEC and God why Me. Every time i go there at St. Luke I was felt so much bad to them co`z I will gonna wait 6 months, expensive to go there everyday just to take a Medicines. Yes, they not allowed you to bring your Medicines you always go there everyday at St. Lukes to take your Medicines and Yes, I was spent a lots of money for my Transportation, most of all you can always tired and inhale the polluted air in the street.Bargaining= my anger was passed and I ask forgiveness to God what all I said to him. Depression= for what happened me. I still have a depression co`z takes so long to me to be with my husband. Acceptance= I calm and wait the God`s will now and believe he plan us the best time to Me and my Husband one day to be reunited again. And 6 months is good for the lifetime Happiness together with my Husband in the best time to reunite again. ( Lesson: Believe him (Jesus) whatever happened your life co`z He was really knows what best you are in this time. He has something planned to you and He was prepared you the lifetime Happiness.)

And Now, Yes Now! I am almost 3 months of treatment and try to move on now with Happiness and Love with husband, most specially faith in God. And I was taken as of now a short course while I having Medication May 2, 2008 will be my first X-ray test and I already lift up to God all what happened co`z he was know what the best to me this time. By my help, support to my Husband and my loving family. ( Don`t give up.)

" God Is Good All the Time. "

[ED*Riza 0]

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Rachel,

I am touched with what you have been through. I believe God has his reason and you will be amazed when it will be revealed to you. God bless you .

[cieloazul 0]

Thank you for sharing you experience. I admire your faith and your relationship with your husband. God bless you.

[Mike_Zandy 0]

Its been 4 months now, since I been having a Early Medical Exam at St. Lukes. I was excited in first place before i go at Slec and hoping that i can have my Medical result as early i was expected and wait my Interview time at USEM. But all the feelings was turned into Blue when they tell me that i will doing a sputum test and wait 2 months for culture result. Mixed emotions, Depress, disappointed, and Lonely all the expectation those time was really cant imagine and express.

After 6 weeks to wait they called me to go back at Slec and to get my result. Expected so much the result was good and there is no trouble in my health but then all the depression, disappointed and lonelyI felt was more worst when the Doctor confirm me that i was have a inactive TB and need to have a Medication it takes 6 months.....Lesson: Don`t too much expect too much it will make you disappointment and depress more. To make you unhappy and hard to accept the Reality. Do i hear it good when Doctor said 6 months of Treatment? You how long it was and to be waited again? 6 months of treatment and to be wait to be with my Husband again.

My husband was expected too that I dont have any problem with my Health. But those time the fate was not us, Im not lucky like others those time. Now, How do I tell my husband that I am going to have a 6 months medication? Where to I start to tell him that I was infected and have a TB that needs to have a 6 months Medication? Worried! Scared! I was so scared more to tell him co`z i was thought there was changes his feelings to me. ( Lesson: Trust you Husband/Fiancee/Fiance with all your Heart and Soul.)

But still I decided to call Him and tell him all what is going on my Medical result, unexpectedly in the middle of conversation tears was flow in my eyes when I explaining him whats going on but my Husband stay clam, listen, understand my feelings, cheer me up those time even I was know his feeling that he was affected too for my Medical result. Lesson: Don`t doubt his Love to you, He loves you much more than what you think think of.. My husband, My Love and My Best friend showed me how what Love more means and ear to listened my depression. I am Lucky have a husband and friend like him.

But, even i realized I am lucky. I still have made a DABDA. Denial= that i dont have a TB. Even I was start already my Medication at St. Luke I still deny that i dont have infected. Angry= to the people at SLEC and God why Me. Every time i go there at St. Luke I was felt so much bad to them co`z I will gonna wait 6 months, expensive to go there everyday just to take a Medicines. Yes, they not allowed you to bring your Medicines you always go there everyday at St. Lukes to take your Medicines and Yes, I was spent a lots of money for my Transportation, most of all you can always tired and inhale the polluted air in the street.Bargaining= my anger was passed and I ask forgiveness to God what all I said to him. Depression= for what happened me. I still have a depression co`z takes so long to me to be with my husband. Acceptance= I calm and wait the God`s will now and believe he plan us the best time to Me and my Husband one day to be reunited again. And 6 months is good for the lifetime Happiness together with my Husband in the best time to reunite again. ( Lesson: Believe him (Jesus) whatever happened your life co`z He was really knows what best you are in this time. He has something planned to you and He was prepared you the lifetime Happiness.)

And Now, Yes Now! I am almost 3 months of treatment and try to move on now with Happiness and Love with husband, most specially faith in God. And I was taken as of now a short course while I having Medication May 2, 2008 will be my first X-ray test and I already lift up to God all what happened co`z he was know what the best to me this time. By my help, support to my Husband and my loving family. ( Don`t give up.)

" God Is Good All the Time. "

Rachel,

For the very first time in my life, I found someone that no matter what comes my way.. I know that Zandy will be there for me/us. From reading your post, You have also found the same with James. I wish you and James the very best..

God bless you..

[Loterly_Richard 0]

i am so proud of you... i really am touched.. there is always sunshine after the the storm... ive been inspiring people here and giving them words of encouragement, but by reading your post...it turned otherwise u inspired me. i dont think i need to say more.

again im proud of you. advance congrats.. youve been through tough times... and tomorrow... everything will be easy...

im sorry i dont know what to say, youre full of inspiration. you are so blessed to have that kind of courage.

God bless you more

[AllRightsReserved 0]

Hi Rachel! hats off to you! you seem to be a strong person. DABDA is an abbreviation for the set of coping mechanisms, seeing you are going through with these, is a sign that you are determined to reach your goal.Keep going girl! everything will be fine. Make sure to comply with your medicines and time will run fast. Your story touched me.

Good luck and you'll be be in our prayers.

[dbears 1]

3 months down and 3 months left to go!!! You are doing good rachel

i have a daily dose of e-devotional and I guess it seems really appropriate for your situation and for all who are waiting and hoping for something. Let me share this devotional by Leslie Snyder, who happens to be one of my favorite Christian author.

April Showers Bring May Flowers

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.—Ecclesiastes 3: 1

If April showers bring May flowers, what do May flowers bring?

Pilgrims!

This favorite kid’s joke has been around a long time. It never changes. It’s always corny but year after year around springtime, this joke surfaces and kids’ faces light up every time they tell it to someone. Knock-knock jokes are the same way. Here’s my favorite.

Knock-knock?

Who’s there?

Panther.

Panther who?

You’re panther down, better pull them up!

I laugh every time I hear this joke, and laugh through it every time I tell it. Again, like the Pilgrim joke, the punch line never changes. It’s 100% predictable, but it makes me laugh every time. Spring is also a lot like a good knock-knock joke. You know what to expect every year, but like an anticipated punch line, it brings great joy whenever you experience it.

Whether it’s the return of the songbirds, the presence of robins in your yard, the burst of color from tulips, daffodils, and other flowers that have slept through the winter or the gentle rustling of the new leaves on the trees, spring is a glorious time of new life and new hope It brings with it an unexplainable joy. The writer of Ecclesiastes recognized the timing and seasons of life. He said there is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.

Aren’t you thankful that spring returns every year? How dull, hopeless, and dreary life would become if not for the promise of the return of spring each March. A life without spring reminds me of the fantasy city of Narnia in C.S. Lewis’s The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. The Witch has taken over the land of Narnia and has turned the land into perpetual winter. Life is frozen in time and the promise of new life is gone. Fortunately for us, we have the hope of new life and each spring we get a glimpse of just how beautiful that new life is.

Today, turn off the TV, grab your family, and get outside to take a walk or bike ride, or play in the park. Notice the signs of new life all around you. ‘Tis the season!

Ecclesiastes 3: 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time.

I admire you more making your waiting time more valuable by taking a short course. Maybe that is what God intended, for you to be more prepared for the transition of life in the US by giving you a chance to enhance your knowledge and in God's perfect time you will be more ready to be with your husband.

Stay strong, continue to make your remaining days in the Philippines valuable and continue holding on to God in everything and for everything.

God be your constant refuge and strength.

Edited April 29, 2008 by dbears

[xhaxha 0]

I'm sorry to hear that.... but if it's latent TB you are not contagious at all.. u just have to undergo treatment and i guess you'll be ok... nurses(i suppose you're a nurse cuz you know DABDA ) are prone to be infected with that disease cuz we are exposed to our patient everyday with only BCG as protection... My friend have the same experience.. she was very upset.. she's supposed to be in New Zealand April 24th to work there as a nurse.. But St. Luke found out that she has latent TB.. she's under treatment now..

Don't worry too much because you have a very loving husband,. who's willing to support you and who is there for you in sickness and in health....

Keep on praying and stay pretty..

God bless you and my prayers are with you...

[o0pink0o 3]

Rachel,

I admire you for your strong faith in God. I hope that everyone who has a problem can be as strong as you are.

Don't worry because God always listen to His children and He never fails.

Keep the faith alive. God is good

God bless you and May you be with partner very soon

PiNk

[RyaNRiza 1]

Your post really touched my heart. It almost well my eyes. God bless you and I pray the best for you and your coming home to your husband's arms, SOON!

Thank you for sharing your experience. It inspires people.

-Riza

[my_angel 0]

Im touched on your story. If im in your shoes, i'll feel the same way. Dont worry, Im sure your husband will be always on your side to support and care for u. JUST ALWAYS HAVE FAITH IN HIM!

["rylee" 0]

thanks for being to strong...you serve as inspiration to us and to others who are going through the same situation like yours....God has a better plan than what we want...we may never understand it now but eventually when we get to know the real purpose behind it...we will be thankful to HIM....keep the faith....God bless always....

[sj5 4]

i'm really sorry to hear your situation. I'm glad its inactive. just keep taking your medicines.

hugss tight~

[KC♥MP 0]

Keep the faith and don't lose hope.You'll be with your husband after you get your treatment and that's what important.Good luck on your coming x-ray test this May.

[sj_soulm8ts 0]

You are blessed with a strong heart! It was normal of course to feel bad and depressed at first, but God knows you are strong in faith.

And keep doing so... Yes you inspired us! I always pray to God to bless me with a strong faith. And you´re blessed because you got one!

Keep your head up and look up to the Lord and continue praising Him, because God has said :

" ...NEVER WILL I LEAVE YOU; NEVER WILL I FORSAKE YOU." (Hebrew13: 5)

God bless you always....