trying to stay positive but I am kind of not there

[Beauty for Ashes 257]

Well..... I still do not have health coverage and I start appointments at the high risk center on Valentines Day. My asthma is worsening but I am avoiding all steroids and just nebulising a couple times a day ( kind of scary when advair is a class c drug and this is the first 12 weeks. I was told albuterol can cause a cleft paltate but I cannot freaking breathe at all if I do not take it....

being alone and still dealing with immigration really sucks. I have no family in town and I need to make a whole new set of friends who have small ones cause I am 41 and all my friends are haviing mojitos and thanking their stars that their kids are in college.

I have 2 packets left to get to NvC. I am having my attorney review my 2007 taxes before i send them in to make sure I did them right to qualify for the sponsoring. I am just really beyond lonely... Ill sit in the prenatal appointment on valentines day wishing there was someone else with me.. You know I cannot describe what it s like to be pregnant alone... its surreal... Allousa can relate I am sure because she went through it but its not the same as having someone close to talk to...no one to help you if you barf or buy you stuff. I am really getting depressed and sad because I have so much longer to wait and I do not know if they will AR him for even more time.. I am looking at most of my pregnancy alone at this point because even if they start hustling with his papers, it will be another 4 months i think

I am just over it right now.. I am sure people in ap can relate

[doodlebugg 10]

Well..... I still do not have health coverage and I start appointments at the high risk center on Valentines Day. My asthma is worsening but I am avoiding all steroids and just nebulising a couple times a day ( kind of scary when advair is a class c drug and this is the first 12 weeks. I was told albuterol can cause a cleft paltate but I cannot freaking breathe at all if I do not take it....

being alone and still dealing with immigration really sucks. I have no family in town and I need to make a whole new set of friends who have small ones cause I am 41 and all my friends are haviing mojitos and thanking their stars that their kids are in college.

I have 2 packets left to get to NvC. I am having my attorney review my 2007 taxes before i send them in to make sure I did them right to qualify for the sponsoring. I am just really beyond lonely... Ill sit in the prenatal appointment on valentines day wishing there was someone else with me.. You know I cannot describe what it s like to be pregnant alone... its surreal... Allousa can relate I am sure because she went through it but its not the same as having someone close to talk to...no one to help you if you barf or buy you stuff. I am really getting depressed and sad because I have so much longer to wait and I do not know if they will AR him for even more time.. I am looking at most of my pregnancy alone at this point because even if they start hustling with his papers, it will be another 4 months i think

I am just over it right now.. I am sure people in ap can relate

You have it in you to do this. You are a very strong willed woman and you have it in you. God never gives us more than we can handle. A LOT of times I think he overestimates my particular abilities but still....I think it's a pretty true statement.

[Beauty for Ashes 257]

Well..... I still do not have health coverage and I start appointments at the high risk center on Valentines Day. My asthma is worsening but I am avoiding all steroids and just nebulising a couple times a day ( kind of scary when advair is a class c drug and this is the first 12 weeks. I was told albuterol can cause a cleft paltate but I cannot freaking breathe at all if I do not take it....

being alone and still dealing with immigration really sucks. I have no family in town and I need to make a whole new set of friends who have small ones cause I am 41 and all my friends are haviing mojitos and thanking their stars that their kids are in college.

I have 2 packets left to get to NvC. I am having my attorney review my 2007 taxes before i send them in to make sure I did them right to qualify for the sponsoring. I am just really beyond lonely... Ill sit in the prenatal appointment on valentines day wishing there was someone else with me.. You know I cannot describe what it s like to be pregnant alone... its surreal... Allousa can relate I am sure because she went through it but its not the same as having someone close to talk to...no one to help you if you barf or buy you stuff. I am really getting depressed and sad because I have so much longer to wait and I do not know if they will AR him for even more time.. I am looking at most of my pregnancy alone at this point because even if they start hustling with his papers, it will be another 4 months i think

I am just over it right now.. I am sure people in ap can relate

You have it in you to do this. You are a very strong willed woman and you have it in you. God never gives us more than we can handle. A LOT of times I think he overestimates my particular abilities but still....I think it's a pretty true statement.

i am up nebulising again...

I think I am just really really getting depressed. For months I stayed realy positive... we had a k1 running since jan 2007 that due to my lawyers advice.... we abandoned and 8 days after we got married,,, it was approved and we hhad to start all over again... I think its the fact that my nose is stuffed up and I am wheesing and my body hurts so bad that its making it worse. I am at the point that I just cannot physically make myself positive and I am trying so hard...but I physically cannot... Its not my will,,, its how I am physically doing thats making me break. I physicallly cannot breathe.,, I have never fought something like htis.. coupled with the uncertainty of whats happening with him... thats why I feel I am breaking

[ayesha4akram 0]

You're in my prayers

[ya falaha! 0]

Look on the bright side...you have a husband/SO in your life...a father for your child. Millions of women are going it alone everyday. They don't have a husband/father for the child to even look forward to.

[*JG* 2]

Please don't stress so much on the drugs you must take to breath right now. You MUST breath or you won't do either of you any good. I had chicken pox in the first trimester with my last child. People, the internet, books.....all told me horror stories about clubbed feet. At that point, there wasn't a damn thing I could do about having the pox. Everything turned out fine. She is perfect.

The rest of the stuff.....again, there is little you can do about it at this point. You can't go back and say "what if" cause you can't change where you are today. Forward is the only way to go.

Start looking at the good in your life and you will see it does outweigh the bad!

[SaadBell 0]

May the Angels watch over you and your baby.