Wednesday

[Nothing1234 2]

Good evening!

I'm at a barbershop. I have determined that men gossip WAY more than women! Pure craziness!

Its so crowded.

[Nagishkaw 510]

Nawal, that is a fact. Blabbermouths.

[Nothing1234 2]

Nawal, that is a fact. Blabbermouths.

My hubbys favorite barber is dishing on his wife right now. TMI!!

So funny! I'm telling them all they are Yenta's! Hehe.

[Beauty for Ashes 257]

Hello everyone (again) Don't know what made me come online again to VJ but here I am. Very kind from everyone the thoughts ... and I just started reading a certain thread about petioners but after page 3 it was too much for me. I feel saddened. I wish I could have posted but it was closed. All I will say is that ... once you walk on the shoes of another, only then will you know what they are going throu. If you break a nail, and make a big fuss about it ... ye your a drama queen ... but if you lose a child, go throu any type of martial difficulty, trauma, heartache or any pain ... ####### I think you are more then entitled to ######, cry, scream, act insane ... whatever it takes. Ye, slipping all your inner-most life online, for all public view only welcomes criticism and more BS ... but why would someone do that? Well, I guess simply to find people, who maybe are in a similar situation ... someone could maybe just maybe understand. Maybe that doesn't make sense to all ... but enchallah does to some. Anyway, that's my ######. From me, I will read and keep reading ... listening to anyting Kat has to dish out. I am far and far ... but that's the least I can do. The touch of a hand, the hug, the shoulder to cry on, the ear to listen is she needs ... and the grace to come for her to overcome this grief.

Kat, sorry I have not been on in a while and/or SMS-ed you but my phone was stolen ... along with all my contact numbers. Enchallah if you could PM me your number again. We have not made it to France ... thou we got the visa for my husband and son. Maybe when we are more stable ... but doctors that I took him to in Alger say he is doing well.

I too, thinking and praying for you these past time. I cannot even imagine what you are going throu. And to top that off rip the scab off the wound ... fixing the tombstone and the upcoming holidays. I pray you will be able to spend them with your family, who care for you. Enchallah even for a moment forget (little) ... Not really sure what happened with your husband (why he is gone) but whatever he did ... he is 100% an a*#. He should getting off his a*# trying to comfort and provide for his family. But you donnot need me to tell you that. All I can do is pray ... he grows up seriously! Maybe you can focus on making this holiday extra special for your children ... maybe this will help them as well as you to 'heal' ... Have you come to the stage of grief where you accept your baby's death? Finally, I wish you the assurance that one day you will allow then find peace of mind and heart.

And BTW I love you toooo! (((HUGS))))

Staashi and Amal, thank you for thinking of me. It is very kind! Also very kind Amal from you to offer fellow VJers your home on Thanksgiving. From my side, Algeria gets lonely during the holidays (American ones as well as Islamic ones ... ye I have my kids and husband ... but not the same this year. Islamic holidays (the Eids) more about the Algerian traditions my in-laws observe ... and my American ones are well zip) So that is why I using this Thanksgiving dinner my friends have organized as way to 'have something of my own' here. Having everything 'Algerian' is getting on my nerves. It has long long lost its interest.

Ok, I will spill my dirt too ... physical I am down. I tried my best to breastfeed but I am not healthy enough to I think. Buying formula and everything conction trying to up my milk is financially killing us. But oh well, we asked for it! To my in-laws I am just spoiled and lazy to breastfeed. Funny, since there is also another woman who gave birth around my time ... who didn't even try ... she is just miskeena. I am lazy LOL!

Doctor in Alger finally told us why the stitches keep ripping everytime I peed LOL! Well cos someone thought it would be funny to give me a few extra stitches more then I needed ... and basically close it all up! Ha-ha-ha haaaaaaa no big chance there will be no more kids! And oh yea, any relationship with my husband too (for a long while) ... LOL that's my dirt!

Karima, your baby's pictures are so cute! Blessings ...

Charles, reading your siggies ... just have to say Congrats! And OMG there will be 2 of you in this world soooooon! LOL! Congrats Papa!

Henia, thank you. Thank you for everything. For understanding me. For understanding the situation. I would have never found u had I not put myself out there to be called bad things..My friends from work are supportive and so are some of my neighbors but many have no sympathy even with being married to someone arab .. everyones first reaction was not what I thought it would be. They just want "me" back and nothing to have happened.I am trying really hard to look and act completely normal and put things back to normal which I am sure they never will completely be

It makes me a little upset when people tell me stories of other people who went crazy for 3 years etc etc.. Thats not inspiring in the least. I need to see something else than years of grieving. My children cant afford me to be like that.... I will lose my house if I sink into sadness. I have to go on for my kids. The double loss of losing my husband no matter how hard things have been have doubled the grief. I have really been working harder than normal and I think I will have money coming in in December some time.I also get annoyed when people who have not lost a child say they understand. No , they dont. Only people who have lost kids understand. Unfortunately its so awful that you can empathise but you cant understand it unless its happened to you. When I hear women complaining about their kids crying or being up all night, I think I wish it was me...

I am thankful for my other kids. I am thankful for my mom. I am thankful to the people who have helped me. I dont have time or energy to remember bad things because I just want to get better. I dont want to cry every day although I know I will. I appreciate you Henia..I appreciate you...

[Mommy2ZaidnSalma 11]

My cousin is getting married to her Indian fiance in 2 weeks in India and half of my family is due to fly over there. I wonder if they will still go. Sad, so very sad

[Beauty for Ashes 257]

My cousin is getting married to her Indian fiance in 2 weeks in India and half of my family is due to fly over there. I wonder if they will still go. Sad, so very sad

I wish you were coming to Florida so you could help me figure out what was Zaids. I feel so bad i have his things

[Beauty for Ashes 257]

What's going on in India? Are you guys watching this stuff?

http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/asiapcf/11/2...acks/index.html

They are saying near 100 dead, 200 wounded, though the police have only confirmed 30 deaths. They are targeting Americans and Brits, gunmen going person to person looking at the passports

Oh lovely...

So horrible. I just had to call and check on my coworker and his family there. They are fine but its so very scary.

I'm glad that he and his family are okay. It looks so scary and horrible on TV. They are saying now 78 confirmed dead, unknown wounded and hostage number is not known either. One of the 9 sites they targeted was a hospital. #######

its now confirmed that they were muslim extremists

[Beauty for Ashes 257]

Hello everyone (again) Don't know what made me come online again to VJ but here I am. Very kind from everyone the thoughts ... and I just started reading a certain thread about petioners but after page 3 it was too much for me. I feel saddened. I wish I could have posted but it was closed. All I will say is that ... once you walk on the shoes of another, only then will you know what they are going throu. If you break a nail, and make a big fuss about it ... ye your a drama queen ... but if you lose a child, go throu any type of martial difficulty, trauma, heartache or any pain ... ####### I think you are more then entitled to ######, cry, scream, act insane ... whatever it takes. Ye, slipping all your inner-most life online, for all public view only welcomes criticism and more BS ... but why would someone do that? Well, I guess simply to find people, who maybe are in a similar situation ... someone could maybe just maybe understand. Maybe that doesn't make sense to all ... but enchallah does to some. Anyway, that's my ######. From me, I will read and keep reading ... listening to anyting Kat has to dish out. I am far and far ... but that's the least I can do. The touch of a hand, the hug, the shoulder to cry on, the ear to listen is she needs ... and the grace to come for her to overcome this grief.

Kat, sorry I have not been on in a while and/or SMS-ed you but my phone was stolen ... along with all my contact numbers. Enchallah if you could PM me your number again. We have not made it to France ... thou we got the visa for my husband and son. Maybe when we are more stable ... but doctors that I took him to in Alger say he is doing well.

I too, thinking and praying for you these past time. I cannot even imagine what you are going throu. And to top that off rip the scab off the wound ... fixing the tombstone and the upcoming holidays. I pray you will be able to spend them with your family, who care for you. Enchallah even for a moment forget (little) ... Not really sure what happened with your husband (why he is gone) but whatever he did ... he is 100% an a*#. He should getting off his a*# trying to comfort and provide for his family. But you donnot need me to tell you that. All I can do is pray ... he grows up seriously! Maybe you can focus on making this holiday extra special for your children ... maybe this will help them as well as you to 'heal' ... Have you come to the stage of grief where you accept your baby's death? Finally, I wish you the assurance that one day you will allow then find peace of mind and heart.

And BTW I love you toooo! (((HUGS))))

Staashi and Amal, thank you for thinking of me. It is very kind! Also very kind Amal from you to offer fellow VJers your home on Thanksgiving. From my side, Algeria gets lonely during the holidays (American ones as well as Islamic ones ... ye I have my kids and husband ... but not the same this year. Islamic holidays (the Eids) more about the Algerian traditions my in-laws observe ... and my American ones are well zip) So that is why I using this Thanksgiving dinner my friends have organized as way to 'have something of my own' here. Having everything 'Algerian' is getting on my nerves. It has long long lost its interest.

Ok, I will spill my dirt too ... physical I am down. I tried my best to breastfeed but I am not healthy enough to I think. Buying formula and everything conction trying to up my milk is financially killing us. But oh well, we asked for it! To my in-laws I am just spoiled and lazy to breastfeed. Funny, since there is also another woman who gave birth around my time ... who didn't even try ... she is just miskeena. I am lazy LOL!

Doctor in Alger finally told us why the stitches keep ripping everytime I peed LOL! Well cos someone thought it would be funny to give me a few extra stitches more then I needed ... and basically close it all up! Ha-ha-ha haaaaaaa no big chance there will be no more kids! And oh yea, any relationship with my husband too (for a long while) ... LOL that's my dirt!

Karima, your baby's pictures are so cute! Blessings ...

Charles, reading your siggies ... just have to say Congrats! And OMG there will be 2 of you in this world soooooon! LOL! Congrats Papa!

Hey Henia. You actually live in mena. Do you have a theory as to why so many young people are doing what they are doing in this video? Do you think its no jobs or a bad economy. Have you seen people like this walking around? I saw some really weird stuff coming in ( people wise) at the airports...just people with a weird look in their eyes..Why are so many joining these groups? Do you ever feel uncomfortable?